XS - Xypher Session 05

best one yet. who says our locals don't have talent?

work woes

i absolutely hate it when someone confronts me with something and ends up snitching on me over something else. nobody likes a bitch at work and I've got one bitch at work. cargo precisely.

been half a year since I've been permanently deployed to cargo clearance and now some bloody fuck is trying to ruin it all. yesterday is by far the worst shift i had, if only my stupid senior officer would had just left me alone none of this would happen.

i admit i made a mistake by wrongly directing only 3 bloody cars to the wrong counter and he had to send the bitch to 'assist' me. i feel it was wholly unnecessary.

long story short, i now have to learn to cover my own ass but i know i have help from my other cargo teammates cos all of them do not like the bitch.

i have to make it a habit to pretend to do work even when there is no work to be done. something i have never done in my career thus far.

basically its difficult to work when someone has marked you and even more when a bitch is trying to kill his own teammate.

i say karma will get you one day and it will ruin you for trying to disturb my rice bowl, motherfuck.

Confused

Wanted to keep my options open but thats more difficult than i initially thought.

He is always on my mind even though he has hurt me a bit. He does make a great friend but i don't think i can settle for just that. I know i have to do just that for the moment and just suck it up i suppose.

Its way harder now that my friends and sister say otherwise but i know if i give up too soon i will regret it.

That something he has thats still makes me want him is still there, faint but its still there.

Mother says just give it time.

I hope i have the patience.