still recovering. the doctor gave me another 2 days worth of mc. this period is by far the worst fever that I've had this year and there is only a few days left till 2012. 

i have mixed feelings welcoming the new year and i have no idea why. 

my 2011 has been a rather okay. wouldn't say it is the best year but i make do quite well. and the best decision I've made this year is to break up with my ex. i feel way better emotionally and I'm very much glad of that fact. 

plans for 2012, still none. i have an outfit i waned to wear to celebrate the new year but if I'm not going anywhere, well, what's the point. 

still sick.

just got back from breakfast with the usuals at Macdees. had my usual breakfast deluxe meal just because i was that hungry and i didn't eat the night before.

i still can't believe that I'm still down with fever. my mentee said that it might be viral fever because she had it a couple of weeks before and it took ages for her to recover and what with the weather - almost raining everyday, doesn't help me recover that much.

me being stubborn also doesn't help at all. apparently when i'm sick my appetite grows even bigger and i eat food stuffs that normal behaving sick people should not be eating.

luckily, traffic at work wasn't a nightmare and my mentee was nice enough to do the work for the whole shift. i was definitely out of commission by the time we went to our second counter. zombie mode on full.

she even forced me to take a nap. which i eventually did just because i couldn't take the head spinning anymore.

my nose is still stuck, my throat still sore and i hate it when i cough. my voice will decide to do a disappearing act in between coughs.

it's time i drink some honeyed chrysanthemum tea, my own homemade remedy to battle the flu or the viral fever i have going on.

i hope i don't infect anyone else and i hope i recover soon. the new year is coming and i do not want to be in bed counting down 2012 with a viral fever going on in my body.

better go get my rest as well. :)

random (edited)

still editing my blog. so far so good.

it has been a long time since i have done any coding and it is giving me a headache. i think i'm still left with adding the sites i frequent such as beauty gurus web pages and shopping sites.

actually thought of using wordpress but I'm very much a beginner when it comes to rearranging codes and so to prevent any confusion on my part, i decided against it. however it would be nice someday to have my own website. maybe i could pay someone to do it for me but it would probably be expensive.

I'd better get back to the editing. loads of websites need to be added to this blog of mine.

toodles. :)

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okay, i'm done for today. will be adding more sites i frequent on a later date. 

makeup setup :)

hello again.

I'm done taking pictures. not that extravagant of a post because I'm lazy after the disappointing attempt at makeup just now. 

enjoys. :)

the top of my table. just the normal everyday stuff that i use like my toner and repair cream and moisturisers. my glasses, a whole pack of cotton pads, my current set of brushes. 

my makeup collection, thus far. not that much because i got into makeup only mid of 2010. my most expensive purchase to date is my Dinair airbrush kit. :) and it is an investment well made. not at all disappointed w/ the results after i started using it. 

my accessories drawer, slightly messy. i guess i need to buy something to organize it. 

the misc stuffs. loads of cotton pads. those polka dot boxes are tampons and yes, i use them. the rest are my toner and face wash, moisturisers and lens solution. i like to keep extra handy just in case i forget to buy when it's finished. 

the 2 boxes filled w/ my stuff. left is misc stuff, still very important though. the right is filled w/ my books and other more important stuffs. basically both are important boxes. heh. 

i placed the bear there just because. :D

the next few pictures are my attempt at makeup. in the end it just disappointed me.

before

 afters.

i think i just made my face look flawless and that's about it. sometimes i don't like the way my eyes are hooded and shaped because whenever i take pictures, whatever i did w/ my eyes cannot be seen clearly. but i am thankful that Allah(swt) gave my eyes in the first place.

anyways the products used are;

( L - R, clockwise: Benefit browzings in dark, Dinair corrective concealer - the best concealer i own, Urban  Decay eye primer, lip gloss by Avon, Bobbi Brown blush in washed rose and gel liner in black - i also swear by this liner, Bellapierre mineral foundation in ultra, Avon pencil liner and Benefit's highlighter pencil in pink. 

that's about it i guess.

next time i blog i shall have fixed titles and fixed labels so i don't get totally overwhelmed because my blog is totally random.

xoxo

hello!

oh, hey. it's been ages, again, since i last blogged.

reason being, i have been waiting for the desktop, our very own desktop, to arrive. and its finally here 'cos im using it right now. heh

anyways,
nothing much has happened.

still single, work still sucks, family is awesome, my cats are forever cute, my favourite ladies are forever awesome and my colleagues are fun.

the major new in my life as of now is that i've started to do something about my room. just last week i bought myself a long table and a set of drawers to use as a vanity table which i have nicely placed under the window because that's where the best lighting comes from. i kinda prefer to use natural light to apply my makeup rather than depend on the only light source in the room which is not so good. at night time it does work wonders when i work on my face but during the day, not so much.

ive arranged my collection neatly into the drawers and placed the mirror, brushes and everyday stuff that i use on top of the table. easier to get to rather than having to open and shut drawers every single time. less chance of me losing them or forgetting where i put them. i am known for being careless.

also bought boxes for temporary storage. 2 for me and 2 for sister. managed to divide everything accordingly and i thought 2 boxes wasn't enough and with the budget i had, i couldn't buy more than 2 per person. so it surprised me that it was more than enough.

my books and other stuffs are  now separately stored in 2 boxes and i managed to squeeze in my shoes in the bottom half of my closet.

since i bought all these stuff to kick things up. the next few stuffs will be up to sister. after everything has been bought and assembled, the last step would be painting our room. sister suggested something dark or boutique like. we'll see how everything goes first.

we still need more shelving though.

well, anyways, i'll be back later to post pictures. i have yet to try out the new makeup setup that i have.

till then. :)

a grandma's love.

hello all,

im at my Nyai's house emjoying her company. i always ove to comeover and listen to her talk about anything. 'cos the one thing my Nyai gor perfected was random talk. she can talk about almost anything that comes to her mind. current issues, childhood memories and family.

there is a certain degree of openness when she talks about something. not that you can talk about anything to her, sex is mosdef not one of them. i'd rather have a open a random topic and just listen and try to put in my points. well try to since hse is such a chatterbox at her age.

though there is only one thing that can make me slightly annoyed and that is the fact that she always cooks for me and tries to feed me at least a weeks' amount of food. well okay, not  a week lah. that is too much, lets just say alot, she likes to cook ALOT for me.she always say i am skinny and i should eat more. well, she hasn't seen me naked, that would be a shocker for her. hehehs.

but,  i shouldn't complain so much. i've always had a soft spot for her cooking and next to my mother's their the best.

i guess  when it comes tomy patrenal grandma, food has been a a way for her to shower her love on her grandchildren and i really hope that my children will get to experience it as well.

may both my grandmas live to the ripe old age of 100 and beyond. Amin Ya Rabbal Al-amin

When there's good food.....

I'm at my uncle's house right now. A gathering for his wedding anniversary plus a surprise mini birthday celebration for my babybro. As usual, the food is great and the company even greater. Babysis and me are planning a trip to LA next year. So far 5 people are joining for the trip. Myself, sister, two of my cousins and babysis's bf. We'll be going in late May cos that would be the best time to go since the weather in LA would be less wet. Perfect time to be visiting Venice beach and enjoying the nightlife without worrying of getting caught in the rain. I'm really hoping that this trip will succeed. I'm now using the massage chair that my uncle has and enjoying a movie as well. Till the next time. ;)

a metamorphosis?

it has been slightly more than two weeks, i think. i dont keep track of the dates nor the days nowadays 'cos the more important ones have been stored in memory. 

anyways. i have had quite a battle with myself this two weeks and a lot of decisions have been made, final decisions.

first, the decision to study has to be cancelled, maybe for the time being. 'cos my family needs the money and with me studying i can barely cover my own expenses and what with my family depending on me heavily for that extra financial help made me decide to just stick to my current job and fervently hope ilast until they post me out. shouldn't be that bad since some officers have served longer in woodlandsand they are still around. so yeah, gonna make this my job. career, not so much cos there's not much prospect as long as i get increments every year i'm all good. getting promoted over the years would be good enough for me too.

as for the exboy and the money he owes. well lets just say im not gonna ask. despite what others have adviced me to do, which is to ask from him the money he owes since he said he willl pay me back bit by bit. i just don't want to face the prospect of having to deal with him because of this money thing. if he's the man he sayshe was then he will pay me back without constant reminders from me, if not then i have been in love with a boy who thinks himself a man then. 

and that's that. i've not been one to dally after exes and mosdef not gonna change that habit for this one. however i still appreciate  the advice my closest of friends gave me. 

and,
my r/ship with my sister has been repaired, not fully though. just enough for me to overlook her selfishness. she knows that too and with that i hope that she'll change for the better over the years. well she isn't getting any younger as well.

it's already october and the year is  coming to a close soon. 2011 has been so-so for me thus far and here's hoping 2012 will be slightly brighter.

and i'm thinking of creating my own website but i don't have the time as of yet.

well, good day world!

i need a miracle to happen.

i should really just delete this blog of mine. i have neither a working desktop or laptop at home and it's been two whole months since i last updated. even that wasn't a real update.

i just have a lot on my plate this past few months.

i just broke up with my boyfriend. like finally. yet i cant forget him as of yet 'cos he owes me money. he says he'll pay bit by bit starting next month but we'll see about that.

my grandma is in hospital cos she fell in the toilet, she's recovering. that i'm glad about, a little spot of sunshine in my rather dark life this past few months.

work for me is getting more and more annoying, ridiculously so. if i had higher qualifications i would have left long ago but alas, i have only a higher nitec cert and most private companies prefer diplomas. this made me want to further my studies. take up a pharmaceutical sciences course or somewhere along those lines but the course fee for a foundation cert plus a degree course will need me to save up at least 50k. that is way too much even for me. i can save up for the foundation studies but for the degree itself, would take me years.

familial responsibilities have also played a part in my decision to postpone my studies. even though my parents have no problem with me wanting to further my studies, i just feel bad 'cos they'll have to work slightly longer so as to help financially if i ever need it and that's the thing i most want not to happen at all.

i just can't stand working at my current workplace anymore. that's the main reason why i'm finally deciding to continue my studies.

thank goodness my parents will never nag about marriage to me, no pressure there and after the last relationship. i'm definitely not going to get attached anytime soon. its about time i love myself instead of loving someone who does not deserve any ounce of it. he made me feel and look like an idiot for 3 whole years.

father is recovering from a knee injury and has not work for almost two whole months. he wants to change jobs but his supervisor won't let him 'cos he is their most valuable and best worker. i hope they can find a solution for him if they want father to stay long.

what else is new eh, i'm not talking to my sister, for real. not unless she changes and stops being selfish. she may not realise or notice at all but she is still selfish. i guess i couldn't take it anymore seeing her behave that way, i feel disappointed that i wasn't a better role model for her. it got me very disappointed that at her age she's not mature yet. whatever lah okay, as long as she's happy being that way then i'll no longer try to interfere and change her. talking to her will make it more worse and i find that i have a brief respite of tension to deal with at home.

bottom line is, if she's happy then i'm no longer gonna try. just hope that she can deal with not talking to me in the longest time. i've not spoken to her in over a week. mean, i know but i feel better this way 'cos i don't have to deal with her drama.

i even went as far as telling her that i'll be forgoing the LA trip with her next year. that was the hardest thing to do 'cos we've always gone on holidays together. i just hope she's happy now.

gosh, this felt so good on a level. it has been a long while since i blogged like this. however this doesn't mean my problems are over, i still need to really think through my decision on furthering my studies. i seriously don't know if i should go for what i want or what's best for the family. being the eldest sucks sometimes, especially since i could have made better decision in the forgotten past.

i wish some rich muslim man would just sweep me off my feet and marry me. then i have less of a burden since i can quit my job, become a housewife and just take care of my family, plain and simple as any wish goes.

but that's never gonna happen in my lifetime, who would want me huh, i'm just an average girl.

Adele

sums up my two weeks so far and yes it has all got to do with a single significant person. I'm back to being confused.

changes.... i hope.

afternoon world!

this week for me has been rather miserable. the reasons are the usual ones which are work and my r/ship has gotten me feeling that way. however, rather important decisions has been made. at least i think so.

i just need to keep my mind off of him and with me starting to coach my cousin with her english i definitely think its a start as good as any. as of right now my mind is busy thinking of lesson plans. im not a teacher by any means cos i cant teach people. i just work with what i ahve and since my cousin's english is above average i find it quite easy to coach her. she is just a little bit rough with her vocab and grammar other that that everything else is perfect. i hope in a few months she can learn to correct her own english. my methods arent conventional by any means but i find it effective cos thats how i improved my english.

her first lesson went pretty well cos she has already started to point out her mistakes and so im hoping for the best. her next lesson will be this coming friday, a trip to the library to help her with her vocabulary.

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work, well work has been work. nothing new and i dont expect anything remarkably good to happen since people can be so ignorant about border security. i just hate looking at their arrogant ignorant faces. and more often than not im always in a bad mood when clearing those arrogant idiots. and i always hate it when they throw their passports and snatch it back when im done. if i didnt have to support the family i would have resigned and chosena a more fulfilling job. preferably one where im working around animals but too bad im not that educated, not in singapore's standards where everything has to have paper qualification higher than ITE, so baically im stuck with the current job that i have.

enoguh about work, im beginning to get angsty.

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as for my confusing r/ship, let's just say im leaving that to him and fate cos i am so tired of having to think so hard to keep the r/ship working for us and when i feel that he's clearly not trying. sometimes im too patient for my own good.

im just running out of options i guess. if he thinks im no longer good enough or if he doesnt feel the same about me then thats fine with me. i'd prolly cry and feel miserable for a few weeks before moving on. cos all i seem to be doing lately is pissing him off. and when he didnt reply to my msg last weekend i just shut down.

if God Almighty thinks we're meant to be together then we'll prolly be together in the future.

well thats it for today. here's to more peaceful nights.

hello errbody!

it has been such a busy week. i had one of my busiest weekend last week what with me having to attend 2 engagements back to back. one of them was Jessica's, a colleague of mine. her engagement fell on a Saturday, it was our night off, thank god the event started at late afternoon and i had some time to sleep. if not i'll prolly doze off sometime during the event.

the very next day was my best friend's Nana's engagement. i had an extra early day 'cos i had to wake up early and get my medical cert so i can skip work w/o getting into trouble. stayed until evening before gg home with sister. kinda got lost trying to find the bustop and wearing heels was not helping me at all.

other than that, work has been pretty normal.

and im done for today. night shift later and im not looking forward to it.

June :)

hey hey, just got back from breakfast with my colleagues after my night shift. another night shift to go through later on.

anyways, the past two weeks have been rather exciting. except for work that is. work suck as usual. clearing all those singaporeans, prs, work permit holders and foreigners can make me go berserk sometimes. such ignorant people, ignorant about border security.

enough about work, i do not want to get depressed at home because of work.

last Monday i visited USS to spend some time with my lovely siblings. it has been a long time since i spent any time with them what with me working shift and sister working as well. which lefts brother busy with school and his girlfriend. it seemed like a good idea 'cos i felt guilty not being able to amass the funds needed to bring brother along for my vacation in Australia. thus the special USS treat. pictures will be up on brother's facebook soon. :)

i must say that the time spent there was awesome. the rides were awesome. especially the Revenge of The Mummy and Battlestar Galactica rides. fucking annoying but awesome. i have definitely decided to bring the whole family down to USS on my birthday plus a nights stay at Resorts' World Sentosa. i have actually star ed to do my financial research. soo sexcited for my birthday which is months away. hehs

moving on...

my colleague and one of my girl friends' are getting engaged this weekend and i still have yet to decide what i want to wear to each of their engagements. on top of that this weekend boyfriend has also asked me if i want to go somewhere and eat with him. as if he needs to ask if I'm free for him. silly boy. this all means that i have a busy weekend. one i have not had in a long time what with the shift working hours.

i must not forget to take sick leave on Sunday for my girl friend's engagement. I'll be damned if i miss that one.

i still don't know what to wear, any ideas?

that's about it i guess. see ya'll later :)

What's your astrological sign? Do you think it's representative of who you are?

I'm a Saggitarius and personally i think it's a very good representation of me as a person.

I'll answer almost anything :)

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hey hey!

it has been ages since i blogged. nothing much too blog actually 'cos god knows my life is boring.

anws, i just returned from a well deserved holiday. i went to Australia for a bout two weeks. i had an awesome time. winter was such an experience for me, granted it was cold but to me it was still an experience, a beautiful one.

i did get sick halfway during the trip but all was fine 'cos i did not let it get in my way.

i'm not going to be blogging much 'cos pictures will tell a better story. that is if i get it up on facebook on time. hehs

I'm only going to highlight just the more exciting parts of the trip.

well maybe not. hehs, I'm feeling kinda lazy right now.

anws, i went to Movieworld. the place was just AWESOME!

Goldcoast was such a beautiful place and the hotel i stayed in for the trip had a superb view of the beach. we ate a lot of kebabs there ' cos it was that good.

i must say that i had a lot of chicken throughout the trip because i swear their chickens taste good. well not the actual chicken but chicken meat. and everything there seems to be up sized or super sized in my point of view.

okay the other places i visited in Australia was the War Memorial over in Canberra, the Taronga Zoo, Sydney's Aquarium and Wildlife World and i caught Pirates of The Caribbean at the IMAX Theater. all of it was just so AWESOME! heh

well im done. i'll blog some other time.

see ya later!

i've been busy whoring with my new Blackberry that i've almost forgotten that i have a blog and it has not been updated. it's just addictive to be updating your twitter and checking your facebook with just a tap on the screen. and boy, did i get hooked.

other then my new Redberry, because i got my BB Torch in red, i got all my leave approved and i'm even more excited for the Australia trip. hotel and flights are settled, all that's left is the packing and preparation of stuff for the winter that i'll experience there. awesome kan. hehehs.

the only worrying thing is the funds that i'll be able to bring there. i'm just afraid i'll not be able to bring enough. even though i just got my new multitude card, with the credit limit, it still won't be enough for the trip.

so here i am praying that i'll be able to amass the funds by may end.

if i'm able to, imma do some serious damage to Inglot.

okay bye!!

After work clubbing & the ka-chings!

i had a blast last night with my colleagues dancing the night away at Butter Factory. it sure feels damn good to forget my problems for a few hours. By the way i did not drink yesternight 'cos i didn't feel much like doing so. we had a couple of cokes and i think i tasted sprite. hehehs.

the crowd was awesome. i also can't help but notice how different the atmosphere was compared to some other clubs. at least there wasn't any fighting. gosh i hate it when that happens. those who were drunk just minded their own business, saw some awesome shufflers but the music mix could have been better, wasn't the dj's night i suppose.

enough about that huh, as if i'm the only one whoever clubs right?

okay on to the next one, and that is my performance bonus just came in and i'm rich for the next few days.

next few days only because i have to settle the hotel booking and buy important stuff and after that i have to save for my trip to The Land Down Under. :D

maybe my july bonus i'll do some spending. the only thing i'm going to buy are probably some new bags from bagspace for this month.

that's about all, oh and sister dear maybe we should go get Butter-ed together some time soon aye?

changes?

i kinda miss blogging ever since i decided upon the self imposed cyber exile. mcm phm lah aku buat gitu kan.

anyways the past few weeks has been a emotional roller coaster ride. listening to Jessie J and watching her videos made me feel a tiny bit better, enough that i can make it through the day.

well whatevers huh?

enough of the sob stories that my life has turned into. love life, i'm gonna leave it like it is. personal life has gotten better. that i like since i've decided to separate myself from my r/ship woes for the meantime.

working life is the same i suppose but i am looking forward to ladies night this wednesday 'cos my colleagues and i are heading to Butter Factory to partaayyy!

other than that not much updates.

My girls and i celebrated Zura's 22nd at the zoo, her virgin visit mind you and the plan almost tak menjadi.

And on monday will be heading to Nana's place and crash there for abit 'cos the woman is going off to Cambodia for a school trip soon and since her flight is in the middle of the night we decided to crash at her place for a sort of farewellandhaveanicetrip kinda gathering. :D

oh oh, i went to arab street with mother just now 'cos she wants to purchase some kain for this year's Raya but i'm the one who ended up buying something only because she couldn't make up her mind.

Actually, i didn't buy some thing, i bought two things or two set of kains for that matter.

Black lace with red lining and white lace with lime green lining.

okay bye!

Jessie J

This brought meaning, alot of meaning to me. funny how music can make you see the light at the end of the tunnel.

goodbye

my personal life has taken a trun for the worse. i've been bitchy and easily frustrated and i feel like i've lost myself in my troubles.

i've got to stop pretending that the party is still going on and sober up.

if you can't accompany me then just tell me. 'cos i don't like waiting or assuming things. it's such a simple thing to do really.

if at least you said you're going to accompany me than i wouldn't mind waiting. if you don't say anything and i wait and wait and then finally i assume that you can't go then that would piss me off.

please uh i already have waiting issues with my boyfriend. i certainly don't need to suffer at home too.

talking about the boy, seems you're bored of me too huh.

life's fucked up as of now.

Joss Stone

I AM SO LOVING HER HAIR, MAKES HER LOOK MORE SEXIER! :p

frustrating much

just when i thought i did the right thing by being difficult. by being pissed off when he suddenly texted me again that we can still meet up but after 8pm. by screwing that up and making him lose his mood.

i thought i would feel somewhat satisfied but here i'm feeling rather guilty. and by doing so i have to swallow my pride, yet again, and call him to apologize. that's if he wants to talk to me.

what am i doing wrong. i know i shouldn't be stressing him 'cos he already is stressed enough without me heaping on him more unwanted stress but i'm just clueless right now. usually i have no problem dealing with our minor setbacks.

maybe february isn't my month. not only am i broke, i'm feeling rather broken hearted too.

i need help. the balance that was present in our relationship is now missing.

breaking point

let's face it, both you and i need a break.

you need to get back on your feet and i desperately need some me time.

the constant cancelling of plans is killing me.

the nightly calls aren't enough anymore, words mean nothing now if you can't show me you miss me.

yes, i'm being a bitch right now 'cos i've had enough.

i love you still but this is too much.

i'm reaching my breaking point, please don't push me over the edge again. 'cos if you do i will not want to make the effort to climb back up again knowing that you won't be there physically to help me get back up on my feet.

and fact is, our relationship is going into a downward spiral, again.

stuffing tissue up my nose.

i have not been feeling well for the past few days. is it the flu season again or is it because of the 14 hour shift i worked last week? could be both.

now i'm alone at home doing my finances. since my colleague wanted to book the flight tickets already i had to use my savings to pay for my sister and her bf. thank goodness i havee just enough to cover the cost of the primary flight to and from australia. and after that i'm officially broke.

i can't even buy my monthly groceries and toiletries. let alone my BB Torch. may be next month aye?

next month i have to start saving for my expenses and i have to start from scratch. gosh i really hope i can do it cos there are a lot of things i want to try while i'm in australia and a lot of places i want to visit. and of course the shopping i want to do there.

i really want to go so badly. i'd just eat at home if that's what it takes to save. i'd really scrimp and save up for the next few months if that's what it takes. screw material things for the next few months.

wish me luck

FML #2

my pay this month sucks, so much for always doing train ot. the amount is about the same as when i got my first pay slip. they deducted $150 extra for i don't know what reason. my monthly pay is just enough to cover my expenses and abit extra i can give my family.

i'll end up with no savings this month.

whoever is responsible for our pay this month is a total faggard. spoil my month only.

PARAMORE!

By far the best performance of Decode. :)

Jessie J

She's something fresh on the music scene, been wanting to post her video earlier but i keep forgetting. well enjoy :)

i am excited

my night off was spent making plans with my colleagues about our australia trip. we took about four hours i think, sitting around a coffee table at Starbucks @ Civic calculating funds, deciding our itinerary and setting the date of the trip.

well, the date for the trip is set, for now, as well as the amount to be set aside for flights and hotels. the actual itinerary is still up for discussion 'cos it's not necessary to do it now. there's ample time to discuss our itinerary once we actually get there.

and i suppose until then i'll be dreaming about the 'roos and such.

Christina Aguilera is Awesome

thanks to my colleague who played the Burlesque soundtrack on repeat on her phone yesterday night, all the songs got stuck in my head again and i dreamt i was a burlesque dancer. feeling-feeling lah sangat.

anyways the songs she performed in Burlesque are reminiscent of her Baby Jane days. don't get what i mean, here's a video to show that she was made for the role of Ali. well at least something similar that is. :)



here's another since i'm so hooked on her :)

raindrops on my window

it's been chilly since late morning on account of the non-stop bouts of rain and in between drizzles but all's good since i've spent most of my afternoon in bed with a good book and a hot cup of tea. hot chocolate ran out so i had to make do with the tea.

nothing much happened except for the weather.

parent's are out visiting someone and i've yet to get ready for my night shift which is in two hours. i do hope that the rain will cause everyone in singapore not to go across the causeway. would definitely make work that much easier. however, i highly doubt so since CNY is around the corner.

P!nk

Just another reason why i love P!nk's music so much. she's always composing songs about how unfair life is and how we should overcome it on our terms.

I hope she never stops composing songs like this ever.

Sister's 19th Birthday

Celebrated sister's 19th yesterday at home, after much changing of plans 'cos our initial plan didn't follow through thanks to the birthday girl who booked her bike prac on her birthday. but all is forgiven 'cos we managed to salvage the surprise part of the celebration.

the initial plan was to bring sister dear out to Night Safari since she hasn't been there before and to have my family prepare the birthday cards, gifts and the cake in time for our return back home.

Since she has already paid for her bike prac yesterday, Syasya and me decided to bring her out to dinner and follow through with the surprise when she returned home from the bike prac with her boyfriend. birthday dinner was at Swensens and when she took her leave for SSDC, Syasya and me walked around abit before heading home. we bought the birthday girl bubble tea since we didn't know that my parents were going to buy KFC for her. so we ended up with a bucket full of chicken and loads of drinks prepared for her surprise.

pictures and a video were taken yesterday and so i'll let the pictures and the video do the talking once they're uploaded.

As for the Juicy Couture label up there, it's of one of the gifts i bought her. couldn't get the actual picture of the gift online so i settled for the label instead. The other gift was from Body Shop.

Dad's 47th Birthday

The family celebrated dad's advanced birthday yesterday night 'cos i was not sure if everybody was going to be home today and i was right. i'm having my night shift tonight anyways so it was a good idea to celebrate it yesterday.

we bought him chocolate cake, canadian pizza and made drinks for the so called party food. the card and the present we finished preparing two hours before, so it was all rushed but we pulled it off. yeay us!

thankfully, dad fell asleep when we left the house to get the party food and he was still asleep when we returned and rushed about getting everything ready. i think we managed to get everything settled in ten - fifteen minutes. we made mom do the job of waking dad up from his slumber.

she managed to do it with the excuse of someone wanting to see him and was he surprised when he saw the setup upon leaving the master bedroom to get to the door. we sang him a birthday song. we took pictures. he blew out the candles. read the birthday card. took some more pictures. opened his birthday present, we got him Doctor Martens' boots, he said thank you to all of us and we cut the cake and enjoyed the food.

it was nothing grand just a small close knit celebration. i suppose these are the kind that really matters to my family. it doesn't have to be grand at all but it's the thought and the people that surround you that matters.

once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!!!!

i guess i flipped a bit too much

the previous post was kinda uncalled for i guess now that i've read it again. my excuse was the person pissed me off. i still have every right to be pissed anyways. but everything's been settled though i don't think our working r/ship would ever be the same.

never knew i could be that vindictive but there's always a first time for everything. heh

you should learn never to make promises to people

I rarely make promises, in fact i hate making promises 'cos i know i'll never be able to live up to the promise. only when i feel like i can, then will i make a promise and KEEP it. i don't take promises lightly and i hate it when others do.

Don't be in my face needing something and then saying over and over again that you promise this and promise that. When it comes to lending people money when they need it. i always give, if its within my means that is, with no questions asked and i don't mind it at all if said person isn't able to pay me on time or pay me at all. that obviously means that the person is in a dire financial situation.

for me whatever money i lend to someone i will tend to halalkan it 'cos i know i will forget it in the next few weeks. and so far no one has made me feel so dumb. until now.

once you say "i promise", i seriously can't help but to remember what you owe me. and now it's been two months and when i ask for it you said yes, at first and then i get a freaking message saying that you need the money more. now, i'm sounding like a vindictive bitch on my blog 'cos i'm blogging about how you've pissed me off over something that should have been insignificant to me if you hadn't said "i promise". if only you hadn't said those two words.

i always try to be transparent and genuine when it comes to this affair with lending people my money, totally no obligations if you can't pay me but i just can't hear those two words. i take my promises seriously. you might have just ruined our working r/ship.

just another reason that i'll add to my 'why i don't like going to work' list.

oh yeah, i watched Burlesque again yesterday :/

Burlesque

Caught it yesterday with sister and Syasya. Frankly speaking i wouldn't have even thought of watching it in the first place 'cos it seems to be something musical-ly. However, knowing that Miss Christina Aguilera was starring in it, i just had to go and watch.

It did not disappoint. The set, the costumes, the dance and song numbers, especially the last number of the movie was spectacular. Christina's vocals were, are always amazing. Her acting skills, were surprisingly up to chops with the movie. The rest of the cast were damn good too.

Oh, and Cam Gigandet was damn sexayye in the movie. There is the one scene where we had a good view of his butt, his very cute sexy butt. I like.

Anyways, it's a must watch for fans of Christina 'cos the movie just shows you how talented she is. She prolly is the most talented and successful alumni of the long defunct Mickey Mouse Club.

I adore her!

random talks over hot chocolate

Met Khai yesterday after work. it was an awesome afternoon spent with her.

the meeting time was at 5pm but there is always some random event that will make her late, always. this time around she had a fight with a random malay guy while waiting for the train to meet me. after that all went smooth sailing for us, well as smooth as it can get when we're together.

we talked about almost anything and everything, bitched about anything and everything that caught our eyes. well the bitching came from me most of the time 'cos i'm always the one who happens to be the one who will see something worth bitching about.

well you won't understand what i'm talking about until you go on a date with us and just observe our interaction.

that's about it i guess, i have to get myself ready for night shift.

bucket list thingies

hello people,

it's a cold Tuesday afternoon. been waiting for the thunderstorm to begin since i ended my classification practice shoot just now. i failed miserably by the way. if it were the actual test shoot, i might have to return my arms card. anyways, it's been long since i had the time to actually enjoy a good thunderstorm, with a good book on my bed while listening to the staccato beats of thunder and lightning coming within seconds of each other. well that's me, i just love me a good thunderstorm.

geez,

i'm always blogging out topic. was supposed to start with how i was suddenly thinking of my bucket list during my shoot. i suppose that's why i failed since my mind was not where it was supposed to be.

anyways, here it is my bucket list.

1) Go bungee jumping.

2) Go sky diving

3) Scuba dive in Hawaii

4) LASIK Eye Surgery

5) Backpack across the world

6) Buy myself a Mini Cooper

7) Buy myself a Ducati

8) Dye my hair a deep, deep red with violet highlights

that's about it for the moment, it's not in any particular order since i typed it as i remember.

okay, bye!

JoJo

i have been surfing youtube for the past hour watching random videos and i came across the latest JoJo music video. osh it's been so long since she released a new album and i must say she has matured much in her latest video. she sounds different and she looks way too damn beautiful with her gorgeous black locks.

a singer with looks and talent, you don't get a lot of them like JoJo. damn, i miss watching her perform.

okay here are two videos. one of her performing with Timbaland, live and another from her latest album. i do't if it's released yet though.

the past few days....

...has been pretty normal. the all familiar pattern of wake-up - work - home- eat - sleep. nothing unusual. well, maybe my working life s changing a bit or at least i feel it's changing a tiny bit. just found out that one of my neighbours has just got posted to WCP. funny thing is that i've never seen him before when in fact both of us have lived in the same block of flats for the past 15 years. i'm pathetic.

anyways, i just coped me the latest title from the HON series, Awakened. :)

i have already done reading it hours after i bought it since i'm such a freak reader and i must say i'm not disappointed at all. the series gets better and better. almost reaching it's climax i think. anywho, the next book, which will prolly be the last title in the series, will be out come November 2011. oh, the title of the book is Destined. i'm putting really high expectations on this coming book in the series.i hope it doesn't disappoint 'cos it's predecessors did well.

well i'm still looking for new titles and new series to get my hands on. i think i'd prolly stick to the same genre of books 'cos ALL of my books are the same genre ad concept. thanks to the Twilight Saga, all my titles have to do with myths, legends, witchcraft and fantasy. i really let my imagination run wild when i'm reading my books.

and if anyone of the series get turned into a movie i'm hoping it will be the Wicked Series. the content is just AWESOME. the author is just AWESOME. the series is just SO AWESOME!

okay, i'm done :)

i'm feeling rather frustrated

it's been, i think, two weeks since he last contacted me, properly. i wonder if he finally got himself employed, kinda feel that as long as he is unemployed, he will continue to feel stressed out and he'll not feel like calling anyone. thankfully i understand how he feels, especially since both of us are firstborn. the responsibility towards your family is greater. and thankfully, I'm a great girlfriend. yeah, I'm entitled to some bragging rights when it comes to my love life 'cos god knows how much I've gone through with him.

anyways.....

the new year at work started off on an awfully suck-ish note. HR really treats officers on contact like crap. i only got EIGHT freaking vacation leave days this year. just EIGHT. even with the four days brought over from last year is not enough for me. since I've already used up two of the previous four days and i end up with a total of TEN day of vacation leave left. fourteen days was just enough, just only. what holidays can i plan with only TEN?

i asked my team leader and he said to check with admin. i don't really like the admin people at work so i checked with one of my mentors and a couple of colleagues.

apparently, only when i recontract with them, my contract ends late October by the way, will they give me the remaining SIX days. i guess there is some hidden logic behind what they are doing but they could have at least told us. we're the ones working our ass off every single day dealing with the public's shitass attitude. i wouldn't be feeling frustrated if they could take the time to explain rather than us finding out on our own. i feel like a pack mule.

there were a lot of trips i wanted to make this year, overseas trips. i already had to forgo the KL trip with my parents 'cos my sister has already started making plans for Australia and if i don't go she can't go. 'sides I've already made up my mind to go with her. the trip with my babygirls i might have to miss again 'cos i don't know yet how many of my vacation leave days will be used for the Australia trip.

well, hope everything works out this year.

NYE Post

another unplanned post or rather just typing straight from my head.

NYE this year was pretty laid back on account that i was rather pissed with a couple of friends for not making good on their promise of a night out. Plan B, as in boyfriend didn't work out either 'cos i didn't receive a single text msg from him saying if he wanted to go out or not. and so i ended up going with sister and syasya to the 24/7 Starbucks over at Yishun.

spent the new year morning ovcr at yishun in between bouts of sleepiness and random talk. it was my night off from work for the NYE so i thought i got more than enough sleep during the afternoon. turns out i was wrong, must be the contacts 'cos i sure did drink a lot of coffee.

we stayed at Starbucks until about 3am, then we moved over to Mac's which was a few feet away ordered a large fries and waited for breakfast menu to be served at the counter.

of course pictures were taken, two vids of syasya and me lipsynching to 2 songs over at Mac's can't remember what song exactly 'cos at around 4am we all started to lose it. prolly i will want to upload those 2 vids on my facebook profile.

well during the first few hours of 2011 we made plans. future outings and holidays looking forward to a few of them. we had our random moments like our first swear word, our first gossip our first middle finger, you get the gist of it right, just listing all the firsts for 2011.

like i said this new year was very laid back despite all the planning from different parties i ended up in yishun. an epic fail for the end of 2010 which got me rather pissed.

ohwells, cheers to 2011!