lost my mojo

stay home saturday

good morning world!

in a better mood today. just one of those day when you wake up and you just feel nothing bad is going to happen. you feel like you can take on the world kind of day.

started my day with a trip to the family clinic. my plan was to not come to work for this weekend cos both are night shifts. i just got one day of medical leave when i initially wanted to ask for two days. i don't know why it could have slipped my mind. i think because my family GP is nice and handsome. for his age he doesn't look too shabby. heh

I'll decide tomorrow morning if i want to take another medical leave. i would have to go to a different clinic though. lucky for me i have three different ones in my area.

things like this you have to be clever about. my mc's for this year have only been 3. what's another 2 to that number anyways. heh

anyways. i actually wanted to make french toast casserole for the family but i forgot to buy bread after the trip to the clinic. I'd have to do it tomorrow morning then. not enough milk either for the recipe.

no plans as of yet 'cos its still quite early in the day.

maybe I'll be catching Pitch Perfect with my siblings.

laid back wednesday

was supposed to go cycling at Ubin w/ my colleagues but i decided not to go cos i made plans w/ my family in the late afternoon thinking that we'll only spend half a day at Ubin. I've never been to Ubin before so i thought it was one of those half day activities since Ubin is way more smaller than SG in terms of size. maybe next time, if they plan another cycling trip there.

as for now I'm not doing anything much. watching the telly w/ Dad while blogging.

was thinking of bathing all the cats today but looking at their behaviour just now I'd rather not. they seem so rambunctious today. i am going to be the one who will be wetter than them anyways.

well that's all for today.

good day world!

pms-ing

Ive been rather moody the past few days. criticizing myself. i blame my period for that. I'm usually myself when its my period and i don't know why this month I'm affected by the new moon.

anws. work has been okay. usual stuff.

life. okay as well.

love life, rather boring.

the confirm activities/events for this month are the following,

14th - Rebel w/ babyboo
15th - Alpha Cargo Chalet
17th - Sari hunting w/ Aruna.
21st - Cycling at Ubin w/ cargo peeps.
23rd - Gundoos Gathering, as stated in the group chat but still pending though
&
26th - Aquamarine w/ Suz and the usuals.

excited for each one of them. Pulau ubin the most cos Ive never been there cos I'm a deprived citizen that way,

good day world!

chilly tuesday

so far, November hasn't any surprises for me yet and I'm talking about the good kind. no way can i accept  shocking events on the month of my birthday. I'll be extremely happy if nothing bad happens for the remainder of the year.

the vacation leave i applied for has been approved. excited to have the whole week to myself. would be even nicer if i had someone to spend it with. heh.

a few activities lined up for this month itself.

there is;

Alpha Cargo Chalet at Costa Sands on the 15th
cycling at Pulau Ubin w/ Alpha Cargo Team on the 21st
Buffet at Aquamarine w/ Suz and the Usuals on the 26th

a few meet ups planned as well. i am looking forward to all of them.

and planning for the L.A trip are already in the works. damn sure I'm superfuckingexcited for that.

but first, i shall be excited to shop for my very own Saree which is for my Coy's annual dinner and dance. :)

hello november!

my October has been filled w/ fun filled activities w/ my loved ones.

there was Spooktakular w/ sister and her friends, the low key slumber party w/ my favourite ladies and the birthday dinner for babybro's very belated birthday.

other than that I've been signed to the permanent scheme at work which means i don't have to worry about the stability of my job that much unless i screw up big time. i hope that never happens. i shall have to be more hardworking and attentive to details at work.

i wonder what November will bring.

come at me with all you've got cos I'm ready for you! :p

Nobody's Perfect

my fave version of this song.

a wedding affair

!Warning!
Photo overload. 

finally found the time to upload the pictures from Suz's wedding. i would have taken more shots if i wasn't busy being the bridesmaid. hard work i tell you but it was all worth it in the end. all the photos are sort of behind the scenes. all in all it was an experience i would never regret.

they do say a picture tells a thousand words. so i shall let the pictures speak for themselves.

decisions and movies and other stuff

i finally made a solid decision. he'll always have that special r/ship with her and so it is not ever going to be safe to go for him but at least the friendship is still intact cos i have not said anything concrete to him yet. this is why i do not try to even think of dating colleagues. its just a very unstable territory especially for me who values my privacy. just going to continue to maintain the low profile I have at work for the last 3 years. feelings are gone. when I'm that sure of a situation i chuck away feelings fast. 

i waited long enough to see things clearly and I'm glad of that fact. 

anws on a happier note, I've watched Taken 2 yesterday w/ Suz, Shahrul and Eliana. it was a dope ass movie, the fight scenes were just awesome! 

Premium Rush i watched a week ago w/ babyboo and Yus. that movie was awesome as well. nonstop action and the dialogue was spot on i must say. 

looking forward to more upcoming events this month.

TBC, babybro's belated birthday celebrations. 

14th will be Suz's wedding, I'm the bridesmaid :)

19th and 20th will be the slumber party i have w/ my babygirls, hope that happens

20th evening will be Spooktakular at Sentosa w/ babyboo and her friends

if all these events go off w/out a hitch i will be the happiest girl in October cos my October started off w/ extremely good news when i signed the contract stating that I'm on permanent scheme as of 1st October.

i have also started jogging and circuit training. my weight is now 52kg, heaviest I've been in awhile but i will give myself until my birthday which is next month to shed away most of the weight. 

this weight loss thing is more for me to live healthier not for the sake of wanting to be thin and vain. 

that's all for now. good day world!

Ordinary Day - Vanessa Carlton

supper and late night talks

i had a wonderful sharing session with Suzana after work yesterday night. we had supper together after a long while as well.

i now know things about her that i didn't and she as well. i'm very happy that she feels that she can trust me with the things she shared. i'll be damned if i ever break that trust cos i finally found someone at work i can share things without them eventually telling others. she's like a big sister i never had. i'm also sincerely happy that she wants me to be her bridesmaid. its my first time ever and i hope i do not screw that up.

secrets were shared and some unexpected news about work i never knew and can now clarify to be the truth. i never liked to involve myself with the workplace gossip. and i usually find out things only when someone tells me but even so i'll forget after awhile.

Suzana also asked me to go for someone, give it a try cos she said he's a good catch. i think so too but i have to get over the fact that i'll be dating a colleague first and foremost.

being born under the Sagittarius star sign, my freedom and independence is something difficult for me to give up. and for me dating a colleague means that my freedom will be threatened cos everyone will be up in your business cos news travel super fast at work.

i have done quite well keeping a low profile at work and i don't want to change that so soon.

but i still will give it a go cos she has given me her recommendation.

when that bass starts thumping, we start bumping!

Sara, babyboo and me went clubbing at Zouk yesterday night. it was after all a ladies night event and the perfect timing to go because i will be on night shift the following day. 

we had tremendous fun throughout the night. we got ourselves amped up first outside before entering. once we entered and heard the bass thumping we did our bumping on the dance floor. we started the dance floor cos when we came in every other clubber was milling around the perimeter of the dance floor. 

so we decided to just do it. 

cutting this blog post short, we had so much fun dancing together, though i was MIA for a moment cos i didn't know what compelled me to take a nap by the roadside till the others couldn't find me. guess i still do trip the same way when I'm drunk, even after 4 years staying sober. so far no sign of my insomnia creeping up on me. if it doesn't then alcohol isn't the trigger anymore and I'm no longer suffering from depression. i have been staying away from booze for 4 years just 'cause my psychiatrist told me to. 

the relapse was prolly due to me thinking too much. i feel all better now, as in less mentally disturbed. hehe. goodbye depression, you got a good 4 years of my life and now i'm breaking up with you. :) 

anyways, it is mosdef a night to remember. 

thank you Babyboo and Sara for making it one helluva night. :) 

Tilt Ya Head Back

one of my favourite collaborations. :) 

updates

it has been awhile eh. the end of August has been a whirlwind of activities for me. one reason is that i'm celebrating Aidilfitri but the house visits are done, just for me. i only go to houses of people i know cos my parents have way too many friends.

homes of my relatives are done with, well most of them cos i only go visiting when i'm not working. this year won't be able to celebrate Aidilfitri with my girls cos of conflicting schedules. i kinda feel sad but it can't be helped cos work is still important. there is always next year and we can always meet up after the festivities are over.

other than that the lack of updating has been due to me getting addicted with watching Running Man on the web. its just too funny that i don't always have to depend on reading the subs provided, their actions  explains everything. heh.

work has definitely improved and i can't believe I'm actually typing that out. work and improved for me has not belonged in the same sentence for the past 3 years. but i feel the difference now that I'm deployed to cargo clearance.

my love life, i must say it is starting to get exciting again but I'm having mixed feelings this time around.  he is still attached though, not that i care how his r/ship ends up cos i am doing it to serve my own purpose. yes, i'm that selfish when it comes to me.

the fact that my mind is too open about these things scares me sometimes but I'm glad that I'm this way because it has helped in the past.

is it because I'm feeling lonely that I'm doing this or is it because I'm just embracing the fun I'm having right now with my life.

danger excites me but let's hope i know when to stop before it starts to kill me mentally.

iftar in JB

currently at my Uncle's house in JB. its been awhile, ever since the whole family moved to JB, i don't often get to visit. what with my shift working hours.

Father always said that you should always keep family members close no matter how far they are and i had a chacne to finally visit after a long while.

anyways we had nasi ambeng for break fast just now and it was delicious. much more than the ones you get in SG and at half the price. though the food was bought, it was the thought that counts. almost anything for family father once said.

i have nothing much to say i suppose. i mean its just dinner with family and whatever conversations we had just now is better left unposted.

oh he one significant difference between ramadan here and back in sg is that the bazaars here in jb close right after the prayer call for us to break our fast sounds. while back in sg thr bazaars over in geylang especially becomes more crowded with patrons right after the prayer call sounds. when you are supposed to be praying after you break fast most choose to mill about geylang or the heartland bazaars.

my understanding of the month of ramadan is that we must put religion first meaning praying and becoming closer to Allah (swt). its kinda sad that some muslims chase the celebrations that is the month of syawal or more commonly known as aidilfitri.

i may not be the most pious of muslims but i know enough based on what my parents have taught me is that the month of ramadan is a time to get more closer to the Almighty and that syawal is the month where you celebrate the fact that you got through the month of ramadan. something like that, i'm really not good with describing this religion thing. i only understand the basics of what i've been taught by my parents and what i've learned during religious classes. i still have a long way to go to become a better muslim.

well thats all for now.

Iftar with my Loves

its a tradition for us to meet once during the month of Ramadan to have our iftar session or in other words break our fast together. now that most of us are working its getting harder and harder for us to meet up. and if we do, no matter how brief the meet up is, we cherish every single second.

i wished i had filmed it at least it  would have been more fun to do a vlog post instead of the usual words and pictures. alls good tho.

before everything went down in the kitchen at my house, Nadd and me met up earlier to do some shopping because we all agreed to bake lasagna for today's iftar. dropped by NTUC but we could not find the pasta sheets so we changed our minds and decided to do steamboat instead. that was where the dilemma started. e know for sure Nana cannot eat prawns cos she has allergies of some sort and we were not sure what the other girls liked. Nadd and me are the only ones not picky about food i think. so we decided to just leave our basket of groceries and head on over to CWP's cold storage instead, this time with Nuruz.

Rihanna

now, who says she can't sing live. sounds perfectly awesome to me. :)

Ramadan

i thank Allah (swt) for allowing me to experience this holy month of Ramadan again, though i have missed the first week of fasting because of my period and just only found the time to Terawih w/ the 'rents. But alls good 'cos i did manage to find the time.

there are a few plans made for this ramadan. iftar w/ my girls and iftar w/ suzana.

the girls are coming over on the 4th so that we can prepare the iftar meal together. wonder how that'll turn out.

on the 9th is iftar w/ suzana prolly at masjid sultan. that'd be the first time i'll be breaking fast and terawih at a mosque.

on the 14th and 17th will be baking traditional cookies for Aidilfitri and hopefully get my hair done before Aidilfitri itself. i have to buy shoes, a clutch bag and a new wallet. i need a new wallet cos my current one is overflowing w/ cards already.

well that's that for today. i shall document the iftar moments w/ my girls and the baking of the cookies. and when i get my hair done.

goodbye world. :)

Snap!

finally went to Snap w/ Suzana after weeks of postponing. it was fun. like the last time i went w/ the others. again, we did not know what to do after a few shots so most of it was pure nonsense but despite the lack of ideas we still had fun. these are my fave shots.

here is the website just in case some of you Singaporeans are still living under a rock and do not know what iSnap is. Snap!

Sean Paul

he looks bad ass with the mohawk 

Rita Ora

roc my life :) 

Rita Ora

new found love for her music. :)

 

first ever morning hike.

i can strike off another activity that i always wanted to do and that is to hike in a nature reserve here in Singapore.

sad to admit that despite living here in SG all my life, there are a lot of activities and places that i have yet to do or visit. Nadd fulfiilled this one activity with me this morning and we are going to make it a monthly activity, well at least after Ramadan and Syawal have passed. hoping as well to invite the # other babygirls to join us.

we hiked at Macritchie because i wanted to see nature in all its glory via the tree top walk and i was glad i did. feels so great that there are still places in SG that are away from the hustle and bustle of the heartlands and city centre. felt so free while hiking.

while on the tree top walk. 

felt like i was floating on air :) 

anws,
while on the tree top walk bridge, Nadd and me had an epic moment.
Nadd did mention that she and her bf came across a monkey problem when they were last at Macritchie and both of us encountered the same monkey problem.

while we were on the birdge, we did see monkeys in the trees around us but decided to ignore them. not until reaching the end of the bridge and wanting to continue with the hike did we get a shock of our lives. upon reaching the metal door to get to the trek again, we were greeted by a troop of monkeys, sitting on the hand railings.

i tried to be brave and tried to walk past them but as soon as they started to move towards me, my knees went weak and i turned around and both Nadd and me got back on the bridge and waited for someone else to walk in front of us. we cant help but laugh to ourselves 'cos of our slight foolishness.

after the monkey problem was over with we continued onward to Jelutong Tower. climbed up the spiral staircase which made both of us dizzy but we managed to reach the top!

the view from the top of Jelutong Tower

felt the tower swaying while i was on top and i actually thought i was the one doing the swaying. another fail moment. the breeze was nice though.

oh, we both got caught in the rain whil making our way back to the rangers' station but we managed to find shelter at a hut with a few others who were caught in the same situation as us.

all in all i had a great morning spent with Nadd. talked about everything and anything.

the next activity i have to plan is iftar with the babygirls. :)

swimsuits and chicken rice!

yesterday had a swimming sesh w/ the usuals. i would not really call it swimming per se because we floated around the lazy pool most of the time. well Suz and me did, the guys were more accomplished with the swimming part. it was fun even though i would have loved to be in the water longer. 

Suz is leaving team Alpha for PCDU when she comes back from her short vacation to Bangkok. i swear a lot of people are going to Bangkok lately. Sister is coming back in about 3 days time so that's all that matters. :) 

well anyways, Suz is officially starting on the 2nd of July. definitely going to miss her a lot. we have grown very close these past few months. she is like a big sister to me because i feel i can trust her with my secrets and now i am starting to get all emotional. jeez!

it is difficult for me to trust my secrets with just anyone with the sole exception of my younger sister and my girlfriends and if i do share my secrets it means you mean something to me. 

sidetracked again. tsk!

anyways, again,

after the swimming sesh, Suz treated us to dinner at Mackenzie Rex Restaurant (my first time eating there ever!). actually the guys and me should have been the ones treating her instead of the other way around. Suz has always been the generous type. 

dinner was yummy just cause its my first time eating there and i was hungry. the portions were not bad though. after dinner we chilled at Starbucks, the Cathay branch. i was already halfway gone and the fact that i have been wearing my contact lens for more than 12 hours did not help but thankfully i did not forget to have my eye drops on my person. 

Suz and me have planned a long list of activities to do with the guys (Shahrul and Adin).

-rock climbing

-iSnap

-ice-skating , just Suz and me have agreed the guys not so much. 

 and some more that i have forgotten. heh. 

okay bye!

updates lah!

the collective birthday celebration that my girls and i planned, came off without a hitch! so happy that we made it real. the exchange of presents, the picture taking sessions throughout and the supper we had together. we ended up at Zura's place. i so cannot wait for next year's celebration. even though the celebration this year was only a few hours, we still had loads of fun. sharing and updating each other about the happenings in our life. i still wish that i can share more about my personal life, i have been rather naughty this past few weeks. its just that their judgement are the only ones that matter, aside from my family. i care what they have to say about me and my actions. i basically could not give a damn about what others have to say about me, cos they don't matter.

except for my family, my babygirls and a few i call my close friends, what other people have to say about me outside of this immediate circle does not concern me.

well anyways,
tomorrow will be the swimming sesh w/ the usuals. bought a swimming suit w/ Suz yesterday after watching The Dictator just cause we feel that it would look weird wearing our bikinis in a swimming complex. bought almost matching pairs. :D

i also received a lot of good news this week. the one that matters is that sister is finally coming home in 5 days time! i am so excited for her return! been planning a lot of things to do when she returns.

that's all! :)

getting fit

found 3 youtube channels that have been real helpful in helping me shed that 5 extra kilos

TiffanyRotheWorkouts
BeFit
BlogilatesTV

i have thus far shed 2 kilos in the last 3 months. i admit that i have not been very consistent with it. i can manage to do cardio 3 days in a row and not manage to find time to do it the next week. still losing 2 kilos is saying something. my diet has been more healthy and i don't binge anymore when i am feeling frustrated or emotional. instead i jog it off. :)

my goal from now until mid-july is to lose the remaining 3 kilos. Ramadan is next month. Syukur alhamdulillah i get to experience Ramadan again this year. :)

i do not think i will be taking a break from the cardio routine i have going on during the fasting period. one month is too long a break. i think the most perfect time i can do cardio during that period is at night after Terawih on the days i am on my morning shift.

i am so excited about losing weight though some people say i am already petite so there is no need for me to lose any. to each his own i say.

sides' i am still not happy with mother gloating in my face about how lighter and how smaller her tummy is compared to mine. so, my pride is at stake, even if i am just competing with my own mother.

i shall be extremely happy if i get to gloat in her face.

jumbled emotions

i have been sucha wreck since babysis left for Bangkok.

the most epic fail ting i have done thus far is mistaking the CAT shampoo for the usual one i use. i kid you not people. i almost massaged it on my head, thank god i noticed the smell was different. i think i am suffering from withdrawal symptoms. tsk.

anywho, i put a stop to the affair i had going on. it was a mutual thing 'cos things were starting to get dangerous and i figured i had enough excitement for the past few weeks. though it left me wanting more cos he left such an impression on me but i have already started to dis-associate all sexual feelings i have of him. its important that i do this as quickly as possible cos i wouldn't want to ruin the friendship that we always had.

after, everything that has happened between me and him, i realised that i had no right to compete for his sexual attention with his girlfriend. true that it was a convenient affair but still, i shouldn't have let my craving for physical affection get to me. i know it is wrong but truthfully, i do not feel any guilt whatsoever. no regrets either. i think being a Sagittarius is why i am the way i am.

however, i don't go searching for lovers. if its convenient and if we're mutual about it then yes. i guess i am to much of a free spirit nowadays, especially after leaving a bad relationship. i have no intention to commit just yet.

i need to compartmentalize my thoughts and emotions again. only Allah(swt) knows how messed up it is.

Good Day World!

officially alone for the weekend :)

my family will be returning tomorrow night. was supposed to follow them but i didn't want to 'cos i don't know any of my distant relatives in Malacca. I'd rather spend time by myself, doing random things at home.

some plans were made prior to this weekend but some complications came up and my excitement just flew out the window the moment it came up. expecting an old friend to pay a visit tomorrow afternoon but she hasn't replied to my texts yet. I'm hoping my parents will come back very late tomorrow and that babybro's break sesh will be cancelled and that he'll stay in JB as well. 'cos i want to be alone this weekend, its a VERY rare thing to have my whole family out of town and i am loving every moment of it. for once this month I'm not feeling pissed at anything or anyone, disappointed that the plan for this weekend has not been confirmed yet, yes but all in all I'm pretty happy with myself.

i guess that's for today, back to cleaning out my closet. sucha mess in there.

missing my best friend and other stuff :)

it has been a rather mundane start to June. sister is in Bangkok and will be so until June ends, for work. i am so jealous when i found out. and we just returned from Bali the week before. she is one lucky bitch and i miss her so much.

our room just seems so empty, i have no one to talk to late at night when i can't sleep. no one to help me pick out clothes to wear when I'm going out and no one to say that my makeup looks good as well. she is my rock and i am feeling kinda lost w/o her here. however, i am still proud that my baby sister has made it this far in her career. hoping to see her become Manager few years down the road. she is that good in the retail business. i am biased because i am her sister but i don't care.

baby brother is following in her footsteps as well. he has already started working part time w/ CO. though i wished he would at least wait until his major exams are over and done with. mother says that he works too hard and i am concerned that it will affect his studies. he's N levels are right around the corner.

i guess my siblings are made for the retail business. sure they complain about dealing w/ difficult customers but i have seen them at work. who doesn't complain about work? i know i do. after every single shift ends, i will come back home and complain to my cats. :)

anws, when sister comes back home end June, i am planning a night out w/ her and some of our common friends that i am close with. prolly go clubbing but Ramadan is around the corner so i do not think we can make it for ladies night. i have never liked paying cover charges ever since i stopped drinking a few years back. still prefer to enter for free. who wouldn't?

we'll see how. :)

anws. the other stuff is just basically finding out truths i denied for so long. mostly to do with the ex. always known that something was fishy but i chose to not listen to my intuition. and i paid for it. sure the relationship started out great but after the 2nd year it just went downhill. spent the last year feeling lonely despite having a so called bf. oh wells, its a lesson learnt and i hope learn from it and not repeat the same mistakes again. i did find it out from Nana, better than finding it out from anyone else. cried the jerk out of my system 2 nights in a row and now i am feeling WAY better.

happy being single for now, though i feel slightly envious when i see couples walking out on the street. who doesn't right, i mean when you already know how it feels to have a significant other.

i guess this is it for this week's post. :)

Sigma's Paris Palette

i just had to get the palette when Sigma sent me the email. mother thinks my makeup spending is becoming too much but she has been using my other Sigma palettes on the sly so my spending is justified, somehow.

the Paris palette is limited edition which makes it more important for me to get it. :)

enough of the blabbing, swatches coming up. they're not great swatches but hey, i tried. :)

i guess the pictures aren't that great cos i do not have a photography corner set up yet. wonder when that'll happen so worked w/ what i got at the moment.

a different perspective

i have this new neighbour, Younes who is of Algerian descent. very friendly guy. well most Caucasians are anyways.

we had a chat at about midnight at our void deck. not the best place to have a chat in my opinion but he was very down to earth and doesn't seem bothered about it.

we had a good chat. we talked about how he was adapting to life in SG, talked about how Islam is interpreted differently here and back in his home country. random topics after that.

after hearing him explain how hard he was trying to adapt and rooming in with prcs didn't help much at all. he also lamented that the locals here are unfriendly and standoffish and that society here are basically robots.

Bali 2012

my siblings and i had a blast in Bali. even though we experienced some major hiccups during the trip we still had a blast. this trip has taught me not to ever help pay for someone's fare or borrow money to anyone anymore but that will be for another pet peeves post.

anyways. upon landing and after checking in our driver took us to Surfers' Bar and Apache cos the night was still young. we had a good time laughing at the drunken antics of the caucasians. some were drunk, some were high and some were drunk and high.

babybro had a short throwdown with a local. his first ever, by himself and in a club no less. i was happy seeing him having so much fun. we had supper as well before heading over to Apache.

the vibe at Apache was totally different. very laid back. my sibs danced to the reggae beats before we head back to our hotel room for some much needed rest after the exciting first night.

over the next few days we just chilled out ttm. wanted to do some water activities but every single morning when we woke up we just didnt fell like exerting ourselves. we ended up tanning by the beach and walked around town for the duration of our time in Bali.

we bought souvenirs for our closest friends. had henna tattoos done, ate local food and we just had fun. period.

oh, we ate at A&W every chance we had. cos there's none in SG and teh nearest is in JB but we dont go to JB that often anymore and if  we did its usually during the night time when we follow dad to fill petrol for the car.

we had A&W on the last day as well. so nice. going to miss it.

however the most happening night was the night before we were scheduled to fly off. i swear the memories made during the last night are still fresh in my head. we chilled at Surfers' Bar before heading over to M'Bargo. that was when the party started. my sibs killed the dance floor and the event organiser gave them free drink coupons for starting the party. :)

we arrived at M"Bargo at around midnight and kept on dancing until it was about to close. we entered for free cos babysis's friend was with us and she know the dj and the local b-boys who partied there.

it was so much fun. raging on the dance floor. the high i got felt so good after a very long time.

im definitely planning a return trip. we made friends. in fact on the very last night, our driver picked up 2 SG guys who just landed and we convinced them to join us clubbing later. they were kinda shy but after a few shots THEY were raging on the dance floor as well.

taken at M"Bargo (l-r); Iera, Donna, Me, Babysis, Babybro, Shaun and Jujul 

hoping i can visit Bali again, soon. :)

there are videos and hopefully i can upload them on youtube soon. :)

JoJo -Disaster Live

JoJo is love. :)

JoJo - Marvin's Room (cover)

pre-vacation post 2

finally my leave for tomorrow has been approved and at the very last minute at that. i swear the officer in charge of the leave approvals was making me annoyed out of spite. had to wait 2 very long weeks for him to finally approve it. if i had not pestered him the last few day i don't think i will be feeling that excited today.

well,
anyways,
my luggage has been packed, i would say about most of it. the last things to be packed will be my travel makeup kit and my toiletries. after repacking almost 3 times, no thanks to babysis, who kept on throwing clothing items my way for me to bring to Bali, i am happy with what I'm bringing . everything else will be bought there.

all the activities has been planned like i mentioned in the previous post. the only downside is that i cannot get to try bungee jumping due to lack of funds for this trip. . the decision for me to bring babybro was so that he doesn't feel left out again since last year he did not get to follow us to Australia. did i feel guilty after that.

since Bali is way cheaper than Australia's expenses, babysis and me could afford to bring babybro using our own expenses but mother did give him a bit to spend there. so alls good. :)

i am definitely ohsofuckingexcited for the trip.

hoping this is a start for many more sibling vacations to come. :)

pre-vacation post

in 2 days my siblings and i will be leaving for Bali for a week. its the first vacation for 2012 and i am looking forward to it. furthermore its the first vacation with my siblings. just us. no parental supervision!

babysis and babybro have already planned what they wanna do there and just hearing their mischievous plans makes me more excited for the trip.

I'm looking forward to leave all the drama at work for the week as well. god knows how much the drama annoys me most of the time. choosing to ignore them works for me MOST of the time.

I'm only planning to bring 2 or 3 clothing items and just buy the rest in Bali. our hotel is just beside Discovery Mall and a few stones away form the beach. talk about convenience eh. :)

activities have also been planned out, that was babysis's job and we have our own chauffeur for our stay there!

my motto is, " if you wanna travel, do it with style." :)

life's good....for now

my personal life has gotten rather exciting and dangerous.

even though i felt really confused at first, i chose to accept it now. i'd rather have a relationship with no commitments or attachments right now. i'm pretty sure i will not be able to handle another commitment.

getting bombarded with complicated emotions is not my cup of tea for the time being. i am finally enjoying my single life and will do so until fate decides to intervene.

and like Khai said, i'm young and free and i should just have fun while i still can.

keeping it casual is all i need, for now.

i'm miserably happy and i don't give a fuck what others think. :)

a colleague of mine mentioned this blog post just now while clearing the morning rush. so i thought i would give it a once over to see what it was all about.

saw that another colleague of mine posted it on his facebook and thus i do not have to waste time searching for it.

http://gintai.wordpress.com/2012/04/23/is-this-my-singapore/

its kinda sad to read through the post. i kinda know what to expect now when i decide to settle down. even now hearing about how difficult for us citizens to get a house because of property prices increasing so much every single year, same goes for COE prices. sighs.

i very much agree with what my colleague said about how we're severely underpaid, according to rank, in the govt agency I'm currently working for. which is totally not equal to the load of work we do every single shift. employees in the private sector get paid more with the same paper qualification as me. sad that i'm a civil servant yet underpaid.

maybe its about time i search for a new job. a better paying job.

the only regret i have in my life so far is not studying harder. if i did, i would probably be somewhere else doing something i love and providing better for my family. however, there's no use feeling sorry about that. the only thing i can do right now is work with what i have and what I'm given.

DIY Brush Cleaner

found the recipe to make brush cleaner through xsparkage.com.

i finally bought the ingredients needed and mixed them all together. very, very simple recipe. tested the cleaner just now while i was doing some spot cleaning of my dirty brushes. the results were instant.

before

after. 

this is just spot cleaning. i can just picture how cleaner it will be when i do the bi-weekly thorough cleaning. :)

oh and i bought a brush cleaner from MAC recently as well and i found that both works the same in cleaning and disinfecting my brushes. though the MAC one was not as expensive as i first thought, only $20 i think, the idea of having to travel to town just to replace it is not so appealing. whereas for the DIY cleaner, i just need to replace the alcohol which is way nearer than to travel all the way to town.

p/s: i replaced the 91% isopropyl alcohol with 100% denatured alcohol bought from Watsons' comes in a bottle and one bottle is enough for one batch of this DIY brush cleaner. 

bad habits

i have this problem with wasting my morning waking up late when its before my night shift and afternoon shifts. i waste time, cos time is precious, by unproductively sleeping in. even when i set an alarm. i'll snooze until, well i cannot snooze anymore. which basically means i ignore the alarm until my body decides to wake up.

the problem with me is i keep my BB too close cos its easier to get to when i hear the alarm. if i out it too far away i'll never hear the alarm. i have yet to find the perfect spot to place it so that i have to get up, no matter what just so i can dismiss the alarm.

its just excuses i know but having wasted my mornings before these particular shifts for the last year plus is starting to make me feel annoyed with myself. i do not like to get annoyed especially when i get annoyed at me.

even when mom wakes me up I'll still not get up unless its my morning shifts.

at my age i should not have to ask my mom to wake me up for work.

latest online splurge

my Sigma beauty package just arrived today, well actually it came yesterday but no one was home so i had to go collect it from SingPost just now. i literally opened it while walking home cos i was that excited to see the brushes and the palettes. i know i'm such a noob sometimes. and my noob-ness showed very clearly.

well anws, the products i bought from SigmaBeauty were their newest performance eye brushes and their 3 shadow palettes, Bare, Dare and Flare.

i shall try to find time to do a look using the performance brushes on one eye and the normal set of brushes on the other.

shall also try to find time to prolly swatch the palettes colors. :)

the Sgma Performance Eyes Kit. i shall do a further in depth post about them when i've tried them out in comprison with my other normal set of brushes.

the free blending brush included in my purchase. loves it!

the 3 palettes; Flare, Dare and Bare. shall do the same in depth look into them when i have the time.

loving the shades on them, would absolutely love to try out the colors on someone.

now the big question is to video or not to video. :/

Hello Flawless! by Benefit

i bought this recently after finding it out on the website itself. i did not really have the time to try it out for a day 'cos working shift really sucks but i did manage to use it today.

well anyways, its stated on the website that its a brightening foundation which means that it makes your complexion brighter the longer you wear it and so i thought i tried it out.

personally, i found that it made my skin look more tanned after a few hours but i have no problem with my complexion looking darker if i set it with loose powder. it had the same effect on my sister.

the coverage, however, as stated in the website, flawless. i love how light it feels on my skin and i don't need to apply too much. as compared to the other liquid foundation i have.

i also love the packaging. brands like Benefit and Urban Decay have the coolest packaging for their products.

:)

first makeup haul of the year. :)

been m.i.a lately cos i don't feel so much like blogging about my life anymore. kinda boring. maybe when there are special occasions then I'll blog.


well i better not start typing nonsense. the whole idea of this post is to post photos and reviews. it's my first time doing all this swatching and reviews so please bear with me. :)

i went for this makeup event at Bobbi Brown@isetanscotts yesterday and i like the end results.

taken by the photographer 

Adele @ Grammys' 2012

.....

one of those days where i find myself feeling miserable and bored with everything.

i just don't feel like doing anything, plain and simple. even the cats seem to irritate me and that has never happened.

strangely so, feeling miserable is one of my pet peeves. yups. i hate it when i feel miserable and to day its at a much higher level. i do  not even know what triggered this.

okay bye, i'm off to sleep off my misery. a very sad day for me cos i have no accomplished what i planned to do for today.

Retro Night...sorta

yesterday night was the dinner and dance event for my workplace. the theme was retro. i did not dress up cause it was on such a short notice, to me, and buying clothes just for the night seemed a waste so i just decided to make my face look retro-ish. the winged eyeliner and bright lip. i just wore a black and white top that sister purchased for me. it looked tres chic to me and i was happy enough with the whole look.

bagspace mini haul.

copped me two new bags from bagspace.sg, Alexa and Delaney just cause i needed new bags and just cause i was lazy to look for bags at the malls.

Oak brown - Alexa, Grey - Delaney

27 Jan -30 Jan

this is going to be a super long post cos i have not had the time to blog for the past week. work has made me ridiculously tired and mother seems to be piling on the chores for me to do.

well anyways, 

the 2 packages i ordered online from dinair and sigma finally arrived. i was ecstatic until i realised i ordered the wrong colours. i tend to buy things on impulse after i have finished clicking things into the cart and the 2 colours that came along with my dinair were definitely impulse buys. i thought the shades looked nice and so it ended up in my shopping cart with the other stuff.

Happy 20th, Sister!

you've grown a year older, hoping that you'll grow wiser as well but you're still a pain in the ass, my pain in the ass.

i still love you, don't you worry about that. heh

to my best friend and the best sister i could have asked for, hope you have a blessed year ahead.

Happy 48th Dad!

2011 Aidilfitri. 

through the years growing up we did not always agree, especially during my early teen years but you were always there. always there as my hero, my best friend and the best dad i am privileged to be a daughter to.

you taught me alot, though sometimes through discipline. i understand that now those lesson were necessary.

i would never want you to go away. you and mom keep me grounded and i'm grateful to have understanding parents who let me grow as i am but still correct my actions when needed. i'd like to think our father /daughter bond grew even more since Grandma's passing and i shall fulfill your request when the time comes.

I love you Dad, forever and always. i also hope that i can find someone as bighearted and as understanding as you are in the near future.

to my Hero, my Best Friend and most of all my AWESOME Dad. :)

Zura's Engagement

on the 15th of January 2012, another one of my girlfriends' got engaged.

congratulations, zurabudakcutegilernakmampos ;)

the princess for the day :)

purchases and plans

i online shopped from 3 stores yesterday, Dinair, Sigmabeauty and Karmaloop. i bought makeup stuffs and babybro's stuff.

am looking forward to the delivery of the packages but not my credit card bill. so much for wanting to stop purchasing using my credit card.

i have only about 4 months left to save for the L.A trip and if i don't I'll be very, very sad 'cos I've been looking forward to it since babysis started planning. she did say her boyfriend is paying for my flight, and hopefully accommodation as well 'cos they owe me money from the Australia trip last year 'cos i forked out alot for their flight as well.

i have to save up for 2 different currencies this time and neither are cheap. this is because we will be transiting in Tokyo, Japan for about 6 hours tops.

maybe i need to ask Mother to hide my credit card. a little extreme but i do not want to risk buying something, in the next 4 months, that i will regret.

the purchases from the above websites are needed, mostly to replenish some products and 'cos i wanted to buy babybro his stuff for a change. I'm a good sister like that. :)

next month we will be buying the flight tickets and will be booking our hotel and that is why i seriously cannot splurge on my credit card anymore. on top of that, after my trip i plan to go for my lasik surgery. found out the estimated amount of money i need to save for the surgery and its no small amount.

basically this year will be the year i spend a lot of money on things. like the abovementioned.

babysis did say that she wants to go to Goldcoast, end of this year. just us siblings and for that i need to save a whole lot more as well 'cos babybro won't be able to save up the amount needed for the flight and hotel, just for his own expenses only.

here's to the plans succeeding. cheers!

Manhattan Fish Market

i finally went to Manhattan Fish Market (cwp branch) with my colleagues. i promised one of them, like forever, to treat her there 'cos she helped me with something. 

i must say that it was an okay experience. the food was great. i like the side dish menu very much. i had a seafood marinara pasta - forgot the name of the dish. the pasta itself tasted great but after awhile the sauce sort of became overwhelmed by the seafood. and it started to taste rather fishy. 

i would recommend, very much, the cheese fries and the deep fried mushroom side dish. again, i forgot the name of the dish. jeez, I'll never be able to review things properly like this. 

anyways,

the service was okay. lack of communication between servers and the kitchen. we initially wanted the pasta to be fettuccine but it came out spaghetti instead. but in the end it was all sorted out. apparently they ran out of fettuccine and kitchen did not inform the front staff but the person who served us apologised and everything turned out okay. 

i think they need to work on their communication skills. 

other than that I'll definitely make a return trip, probably with my family. birthdays are coming and that seems like a good enough reason. :) 

May Allah s.w.t Bless your soul, Grandma

My mom and my Late grandmother, taken during Aidilfitri.
Hajjah Einun binte Haji Lanit (1934-03/01/2012).

Happy New Year :)

Happy New Year everyone. hope ya'll had a blessed 2011 and hope that 2012 will be the same.

i didn't do much just went to watch the fireworks at MBS Docks, near Avalon, with my colleagues. it was an okay event. just the waiting was terrible.

not that many pictures 'cos my picture taking skills are sadly lacking. so i'll let my colleagues do the uploading on facebook.

the fireworks display was incredible.

there'll be a video at the end and these are the few more decent pictures that were taken. :)