Ordinary Day - Vanessa Carlton

supper and late night talks

i had a wonderful sharing session with Suzana after work yesterday night. we had supper together after a long while as well.

i now know things about her that i didn't and she as well. i'm very happy that she feels that she can trust me with the things she shared. i'll be damned if i ever break that trust cos i finally found someone at work i can share things without them eventually telling others. she's like a big sister i never had. i'm also sincerely happy that she wants me to be her bridesmaid. its my first time ever and i hope i do not screw that up.

secrets were shared and some unexpected news about work i never knew and can now clarify to be the truth. i never liked to involve myself with the workplace gossip. and i usually find out things only when someone tells me but even so i'll forget after awhile.

Suzana also asked me to go for someone, give it a try cos she said he's a good catch. i think so too but i have to get over the fact that i'll be dating a colleague first and foremost.

being born under the Sagittarius star sign, my freedom and independence is something difficult for me to give up. and for me dating a colleague means that my freedom will be threatened cos everyone will be up in your business cos news travel super fast at work.

i have done quite well keeping a low profile at work and i don't want to change that so soon.

but i still will give it a go cos she has given me her recommendation.

when that bass starts thumping, we start bumping!

Sara, babyboo and me went clubbing at Zouk yesterday night. it was after all a ladies night event and the perfect timing to go because i will be on night shift the following day. 

we had tremendous fun throughout the night. we got ourselves amped up first outside before entering. once we entered and heard the bass thumping we did our bumping on the dance floor. we started the dance floor cos when we came in every other clubber was milling around the perimeter of the dance floor. 

so we decided to just do it. 

cutting this blog post short, we had so much fun dancing together, though i was MIA for a moment cos i didn't know what compelled me to take a nap by the roadside till the others couldn't find me. guess i still do trip the same way when I'm drunk, even after 4 years staying sober. so far no sign of my insomnia creeping up on me. if it doesn't then alcohol isn't the trigger anymore and I'm no longer suffering from depression. i have been staying away from booze for 4 years just 'cause my psychiatrist told me to. 

the relapse was prolly due to me thinking too much. i feel all better now, as in less mentally disturbed. hehe. goodbye depression, you got a good 4 years of my life and now i'm breaking up with you. :) 

anyways, it is mosdef a night to remember. 

thank you Babyboo and Sara for making it one helluva night. :) 

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updates

it has been awhile eh. the end of August has been a whirlwind of activities for me. one reason is that i'm celebrating Aidilfitri but the house visits are done, just for me. i only go to houses of people i know cos my parents have way too many friends.

homes of my relatives are done with, well most of them cos i only go visiting when i'm not working. this year won't be able to celebrate Aidilfitri with my girls cos of conflicting schedules. i kinda feel sad but it can't be helped cos work is still important. there is always next year and we can always meet up after the festivities are over.

other than that the lack of updating has been due to me getting addicted with watching Running Man on the web. its just too funny that i don't always have to depend on reading the subs provided, their actions  explains everything. heh.

work has definitely improved and i can't believe I'm actually typing that out. work and improved for me has not belonged in the same sentence for the past 3 years. but i feel the difference now that I'm deployed to cargo clearance.

my love life, i must say it is starting to get exciting again but I'm having mixed feelings this time around.  he is still attached though, not that i care how his r/ship ends up cos i am doing it to serve my own purpose. yes, i'm that selfish when it comes to me.

the fact that my mind is too open about these things scares me sometimes but I'm glad that I'm this way because it has helped in the past.

is it because I'm feeling lonely that I'm doing this or is it because I'm just embracing the fun I'm having right now with my life.

danger excites me but let's hope i know when to stop before it starts to kill me mentally.