another friday afternoon

i woke up rather early today, well early for me. which was kinda weird since i had quite a tiring day before. i would have usually sleep in until noon. total pig like behaviour, i know. it's been quite awhile since i started a day at ten in the morning, so it was quite a surprise to me that i had something to do so early in my morning.

it was like an out of body experience 'cos i started sweeping the house, right after waking up. and when i finally realized what i was doing i laughed to myself. mother knows how i don't do the house chores unless i feel like it. but i continued sweeping anyways. i have a strong feeling that my Moon is more domestic than i am. i just recently found out that he's a better cook than i am. he can cook more dishes than i can try to not burn the chilli paste. at least i can boil water without burning it. imagine burning water, how that can even happen i have no clue. i can only cook with mother's help and i'm already turning 20.

i guess the world has gone haywire, men are better at things women are supposed to be good at. like cooking for example.

anyways,
my hari raya shopping plans are on my mind, as soon as i've decided what i have to buy and what stuff i need, i'll drag sister to CWP or maybe to town to get them. it's pretty difficult to color coordinate cream and gold fabrics to shoe colors. going to ION Orchard with sister is still a must.

i've also decided to trim my hair, finally, a few days before the fasting month ends.
colour?perm or straightening?...maybe not.

cheers :)

lunch date with the girls

i just got back from a very long day roaming the streets, could have gotten back earlier but sister wanted me to accompany her to photocopy her art stuff over at zap-it. lucky for me, the printing store is over at CWP, and we spent only 45 mins there, i think.

well i'm back home. and my feet are so sore all of a sudden.

anyways,
today was the planned lunch date with the girls, i've been looking forward to it since monday. i'm a bit slow on the news uptake 'cos the girls been talking about missing ITE food since a week ago and i should have known that they would be planning a visit to our Alma mater soon. nana told me on monday that they maybe wearing the old school polo tee, just to gain entrance without the security hassle. i searched for the maroon polo tee as soon as nana told me the plan. i found it along with my ITE lanyard, which i thought i lost.

the plan was to meet at woodlands mrt control station at 12:15pm, and for the frst time i wasn't the last to arrive for a group outing. hehe

anyways, i didn't straight away wear the polo tee 'cos i kinda felt stupid and i wasn't quite sure the girls would even bring them. nana and nadd brought them, and so we changed clothes at tampines library after dropping off at the 168 bustop which was opposite the library.

at this moment in time, i suddenly feel lazy to update further so to cut the story short,
1. we made it to cafe 1 without the security hassle
2. we had our lunch. chicken noodle for nana, zura and me, nasi ayam goreng kampung for nadd and yong tau fu for shaie.
3. we talked among ourselves, while waiting for nuruz 'cos she said she will join us.
4. nuruz came and we continued talking and reminiscing until about 4 plus in the afternoon.
5. accompanied nana to an AXS machine to settle her car insurance thingy
6. walked about tampines mall
7. exited TM to go buy bubble tea and snacks from OCK
8. walked about Tampines 1
9. then went home.

would have been able to meet Moon but he was tired from work, feeling abit disappointed i went home. no complaints about not being able to meet him tonight since there are other days. he's swamped with work if i remember correctly.

well that's all, if i could have uploaded pictures that would have been better. :)

i'm listening to Asia Cruz's Selfish. the lyrics very deep lah, it's been on repeat since half an hour ago. here are the first few verses,

let's start by correcting your tone,
lower your finger, don't be coming at me
with condescending demeanor

anyways, the thursday lunch cum visit our old campus with the girls is happening and we may be wearing our polo tee, the maroon one. i can't wait lah. we may also be visiting our lecturers. it's gonna be a great thursday. there sure will be a lot of reminiscing about the things we did or shouldn't have done during our two years at ITE.

i might be able to meet up with my Moon, if he's up for it. though i have to remember to text him saying that i'll be around Bedok on thursday. hopefully i remember lah. only god knows how awful my memory has become.

i still am on shoe craving mode, i shouldn't have bought ELLE mag. hmph!

ion orchard

initially, i thought, the new Ion Orchard mall will be like the other, fifty or so, malls found along the orchard shopping district. the same type of malls like the others with basically the same type of boutiques and shops. however, after getting my hands on the August issue of ELLE magazine - it came with an animal printed scarf which sister adores - i knew i must go and check out the new mall. though there the usual boutiques found in other malls, there were also new boutiques that i think were not available to Singapore shoppers until now. at least i think so.

well among the same old boutiques, there were new flagship boutiques like Steve Madden. the high-end brand names such as Louis V and YSL had new concept stores. but the one boutique i want to visit is Giuseppe Zanotti, a shoe boutique. i fell in love with them after bloghopping to someone's blog and the blogger had done a post about them heels.

i totally asked sister to accompany me to the boutique when she had the time, i sound like a ditzy bimbo, rich one. hahaha

caution : my shoe cravings are at an all time high. : )

normal monday blues

i'm fasting today and will be doing so for the rest of the month, except for thursday since i'll be visiting Cafe 1 with my girls. it's been eons since i step foot in Ite College East's Cafe 1. hee. sungguhlah aku tk sabar.

mother has been nagging at me to payback the days i couldn't fast during fasting month. not only for last year's but also the few years before, which has accumulated to about 70+ days. i have only payed back about a week, still alot more days to go. since i'm still jobless, there'll be no problem fasting.

speaking about being jobless, i still cannot get through to the Health Management Institute. my emails have gone unanswered, my calls have not been answered. mother said that i should just go down to the admissions office but the employment agent at the northwest cdc told me to contact them first because that's how it works. i guess i just have to keep on trying lorh. hmph! damn frustrating y'know.

charice - note to god performance

os whilst surfing through youtube, i found charice again. the first time was when i was watching random past episodes of Oprah, it was a spot of randomness on my part. the first time i heard and saw Charice perform i was blown away and this performance made my bulu roma naik you know.haha. the girl has such a powerful voice for a seventeen year old. comparing her version of note to god to that of Jojo's, she sang the rendition of the song. i have to say that Charice's performance was more aggressive than that of Jojo's. well whatever, they're talented teens anyways.

well just enjoy the performance before i start to blab again. :)

precocious brats

just got back from morning take-care-of-the-brats session. they are so becoming more and more mischievous every single week. well, the boys mostly. usually it will take only once or twice for me tell the boys, especially, to quieten down. now i have to say it more than three times, which happens quite frequently and i have a fear of losing my voice because of the constant answering of random questions and asking for the kids to be quiet. even when we , my cousin and me, wanted to take a class photo of them, it was a chore in itself asking them real nicely to stand at the allocated places. even the cane that my cousin had, ever ready in her hand, was not enough. they're not even afraid of the cane anymore unless, of course, my cousin made some ominous noise with it. the only reaction was for the kids to stay quiet for just a minute.

my venting aside, i took a few pictures during the past few weeks and took a class photo with them. unfortunately so, my bluetooth function on the lappy isn't working and i can't find the USB cable for my phone. i would have so wanted to post pictures of them because the fact is i still find all of them adorable even though they can be such a pain in the behind.

***update***

i've just found the USB cable, let me see if it works......shite! it doesn't work. guess what the computer dude said was true, " laptop ni dh separuh nyawe, so gunakan agak2 ye."

just great, all my posts will be picture-less. my blog will be plain and oh-so-boring. i can't even use the USB cable on the desktop cause it doesn't want to work there either.

at the very least i still can blog and chat using my lappy, though i've lost the zest for chatting, used to chat everyday with my girls and cousins, friends and acquaintances, that was before my lappy and desktop both crashed. well, now, i'll leave my msn on but i'll appear offline, kinda stupid now that i think about it. the only other website i religiously go to besides blogger is facebook and even then after doing my fair share of those addictive quizzes i'll be done for the day. surfing the Internet suddenly became so mundane. *sighs*

cotton fever

i've bought more clothes today than i had in 6 months. the last time i wanted to go out and found that i had nothing new to wear, i almost cried. pathetic right, crying over something i shouldn't be crying over. i kinda got sick of wearing the same old thing over and over again so i reacted in my own way.

mother asked me to go help her pay the household bills today and that i can use the remainder of the money to buy new clothes. i complained the day before about not having anything new to wear for the past 6 months, so she let me use the remainder of the money fo myself. usually she's adamant that i return the remainder of the money after paying the bills.

i also met Nuruz today, i teman-ed her got buy some stuff and teman-ed her to my neighbourhood salon to get her hair trimmed. ths is the same salon i go to whenever i want to trim my hair which is every 6 months. i should have gone for a trim but ALOT of people told me not to. haish, it's very rimas-ing you know having to keep long hair especially at night when i'm sleeping. my long hair tends to curl around my neck cause i toss and turn in bed all the time. plus my fringe is curled in a weird way. the person who's most vocal about me keeping my hair long is my sister, she'll give me this murderous face whenever i talk about wanting to trim/cut my hair.

i've sidetracked too much already, before all of the above happened, me and nuruz went shopping at CWP. i felt so happy just now being able to walk into a shop and actually buy something for a change instead of walking in just to browse. evidently, i'm still a no frills shopper, once i found what i want i'll find a size, try it on and purchase it. i think i spent about twenty mins at Cotton On, the first purchases were two strap tops. i then went back to Cotton On with my sister for the second time today to purchase two more long sleeved tees. now 1/2 of the clothes in my closet are of long sleeved tops. i should find more normal tees.

i should get off my lappy soon, sister is complaining because i'm using all the internet connection.

goodbye & goodnight :)

just another day

my parents just went out to do some grocery shopping. i did want to tag along but sadly my mother said no. she wants to go ALONE with father. haha. i find that cheesily romantic, you know, doing the grocery shopping and dating at the same time. its really sweet too. well anyways i'm at home with my brother, who ever since the desktop was functioning again found a new game to play every single day. sheesh! i'd bet you that as long as that computer is still breathing it will not be left alone.
it will get spoilt again, for sure.

i'm being petty over the desktop just because my lappy has been fixed too. heh.

since it is a normal day today, sister is out and i'm here at home doing my laundry while babysitting brother, well sort of. the desktop is doing most of the babysitting.

i'm doing quizzes on facebook again, they sure are addictive.
later people :)

another post, random

i had the sudden urge to blog just awhile ago. now, sadly so, i find myself staring at my laptop screen thinking of what to blog about.

i've just finished creating my, How Well Do You Know Me quiz. it's a long one. i've done my friends quizzes so it's time or them to do mine. i'm so excited to see their results.

i feel like changing my blogskin but none of the templates i viewed over at blogskins.com seem to attract my attention. preferably i woild like to have a custom blogsin made just for me, that reflects me as the owner of the blog but sadly i have no idea how to do so. as you can see my blog is very plain and very white. i kinda envy the blogskins that my girls have, all made to their preference.

i have the feeling, that as of now, none of the paragraphs in this post will correspond with/to each other.

oh, and i think i'm addicted again to doing all the facebook quizzes that i see other people doing. it's kinda fun reading the results. plus i'm getting a crick in my neck for staring at the screen for so long.

maybe i should go off to sleep instaed of wasting time thinking of what exactly it is i want to post about. Boyfriend always reminds me to go sleep early, though i don't always listen to that advice.

i'm getting sleepy already, a good sign.

well later, gdnight world. :)

my lappy, has just been fixed and i'm happy that i have something else to do besides watching the same movies over and over again. but the computer dude did say that my lappy is extremely fragile and i should exercise caution when using it.

so i should try to use it carefully. i'd admit that after a long while not being able to use the lappy, i find it awkward to use it. weird right. it feels like it has been so long being detached from technology. now i don't know what i'm saying. haha

bye people. :)

friday latenight entry

It was one of those nights, where sleep chose to evade me. I've had many such nights, some nights where i gradually fall asleep and some where i can't even shut my eyes. I can't say that my insomniac impulses have gotten better or worst 'cos lately it feels like it's reached a plateau. A standstill. The difference is that when on a plateau one usually goes back down upon reaching the top because there is no way of climbing higher, since a plateau is a flat piece of land on high ground. My insomnia, however, fluctuates as and when it feels.

Following my psychie's previous advice which is to try to stay away from caffeine and drinks with very high sugar content. This is the same psychie with whom i've not had any follow-up appointments ever since the pill tripping episode last july. I'd bet you that wasn't the smartest decision, tripping on pills, but then again i have made so many idiot worthy decisions in my teen years and at the state of limbo i'm in, it will sure warrant more such decisions unless i find a way to find myself. In an emotional sort of way because i'm already content with myself physically, more or less.

I really should feel blessed instead of depressed having what i have, loyal friends, loving family and the like. And, after overcoming personal pains plus going through so much early on in life, i should be so lucky to even have what i have now. I always have lots of questions involving this very situation i'm in. I think it is because i've not accepted my past with open arms. I always feel a need to avoid it, hide from it, bury it in the deepest pits of my memory. If i could somehow embrace my past maybe i'd be a happier person and with the embracing of my past, i can finally have the answers to all the questions i've left unanswered.


I feel so unhappy having to write posts such as this one but if i don't i'll never find release. It helps i guess forming your depressed thoughts into words, with that done i can at least make it through the day.

here's to more happier and random posts

Au Revoir

hello world!! i've come out of hiding...

here i am at my cousin's crib, initially just to check this, www.hmi-ihs.com.sg, website to be doubly sure that i got the contact details correct. well, i didn't if not i would have already enrolled into the bloody course i wanted to take. well any who I've saved the correct number and i'll have to call them tmrw and ask questions and stuff.

since i have nothing better to do, i'll blog about something. totally redundant of me to say so. i think i'm slowly losing my ability to think straight because i've been at home, mostly, for three months.

lets recap what I've been up to the last few weeks. well mostly I've stayed at home except for Saturday mornings to meet my adorable students, who've become more and more precocious i might add. in fact they've started to bully me, just a few mostly the little boys, the little girls are more angelic, figuratively speaking of course.

about two weeks ago i met my Mr Moon, went on a a dinner date, i was kinda late, for the first time because usually I'm early when meeting him. he was from work and i was from home and our meeting point was at bugis, i thought it would take him about the same time as me to reach bugis, i was wrong. my poor guy had to wait 15 mins for me. despite my lateness we had a good time together.

two days ago, on Saturday, had a mini reunion with khai and aki, we watched Ice Age 3. it was very funny, cartoon humour will always make people laugh. i had a good time with them. Ice Age 3 is a must watch if you want to have a good laugh. the movie had me laughing from start to finish.

talking about movies, there are a few movies I'd like to catch. just to name a few, Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince, Duplicity and Public Enemies ( Johnny Depp....yummmy...), all of which are coming out soon.

well that's about it i guess,

adieu.