EOY Post

my 2010 has been pretty okay, i suppose. no major drama of which i'm glad of. my babygirls are awesome as ever, boyfriend still confuses the hell out of me almost all the time. family life has been blissful.

anyways, a list of stuff that made my 2010 great.

Movie of the Year: How To Train Your Dragon 3D

why: i must say it is the best animation feature of the year, even more so since i got to watch it with my family.

2nd Movie of the Year: Cop Out

why: only because i got to watch it with my favourite girls, the first time we ever watched a movie together.

Best day of the Year: there were a lot to choose from but my favourite this year is my surprise belated birthday party. boy, was i surprised. and i totally loved all the gifts i received for my birthday, from everyone who gave me a gift. the perfume, the jewellery set from my family, the pair of heels from my sister and the lovely necklace my girls gave me.

this post isn't very well planned 'cos i'm not exactly in the right sort of mood, so i'll end the unfinished list here.

aku ni mcm phm je nak buat eoy post tapi belom plan dulu.

anyways people. HAVE A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

i'm still a homo sapien

apparently, there is a lot of things going on at work, shall not elaborate but let's just say that working life is like high school all over again.

you know when you start talking about other people's behaviours, and when you find that a certain person isn't what you think he/she really is based on another's opinion and all that jazz-lah. i do not exempt myself from the following circumstances, 'cos let's face it I'm only human and more or less we all tend to fall in the same pattern or trend. even the most realist of persons will end up in the same boat.

I'm a realist and i have fallen into the same boat more than once, it really saddens me when that happens 'cos i swore to myself long ago that i will not judge someone based on another's opinion 'cos i know how it feels to be judged by others pretty much my whole life. phew, long sentence aye.

however, I'm still pretty much human and humans are prone to mistakes. not that i have ever valiantly tried to paint myself in a better light for everyone else to see. if i ever have done that please do tell me.

anyways the point I'm trying to make is that a person is innocent until proven guilty and that is with enough evidence and all that jazz. that's according to me at least, even if the person is proven guilty then it is his/her problem. we still have no right to judge. leave that to God.

i guess I'm always okay with everyone and anyone around me. and i daresay, even if the person has made me miserable before.

sister always did say that I'm just too nice sometimes. just too nice that i let people step on my head. but i prefer to let karma do the heavy work for me.

so what if people like to step on my head, so what if people continue to try and make my life miserable, so what if people talk about me w/o knowing who i really am and so what if people just don't like me, plain and simple. I've been there and done it, to other people and karma was a bitch in stilettos with a poisoned whip and i do not plan to meet Her again, ever again. meeting Karma probably changed me into a realist so much so that i seem to not care what opinions other have made of me.

let's just say I've learned to become deaf in the situations involving myself.

bah! another lengthy worded post which will make me wonder why i even started typing it in the first place. let's go back to revising for my final theory test, which is next week by the way, over my hot cup of McCafe Cino. :)

p/s: being a realist is not a title i gave myself but one that i accepted nonetheless after the most important of people in my world suggested that it fits me the most after i opened up to her about most of my teenage life. She's my Mother, by the way.

highlights and such

my December has been pretty eventful.

my girls threw me a surprise belated birthday celebration and boy, was i surprised. there is a video but i have yet to upload it 'cos, like I've prolly said a hundred times, my laptop and desktop do not want to read my camera's memory card. so it will take ages to upload the vid and them pics they took.

anws, my face looked like this in the video or close enough to it.

next eventful thing was getting my hair coloured, I'm happy with the colour. just the right shade for work, which is not too obvious but obvious enough that the colours 'pop' when exposed to sunlight. that's what sister says anyways.

oh yeah, my hair has two tones. a dark brown shade for the base colour which i kinda forgot the name to and a dark mahogany blonde for the highlights. it turned out really gorgeous that even now I'm still touching my hair every few minutes. ;D

i daresay that it's the best investment i made on hair to date, I've had a few bad experiences with hairdressers last year, so I'm definitely happy that the stylist didn't screw up my hair. :D

anws, I've yet to go shopping, this time not for clothes but for make-up stuff 'cos ever since i started watching XSparkage's videos online i have a new found love for make-up and beauty. sounds vain but i don't really care 'cos it gives me something to do at home when i'm extremely bored.

sadly, most of the stuff she uses like Inglot Cosmetics, Urban Decay and Too Faced just to name a few don't ship to Singapore yet. so far only Eyeko nail polishes are shipped internationally. so I'm gonna start investing money in clothes and make-up from now on. more so on make-up since i ahve way too many clothes combinations to get by

and so, imma do some serious damage to Sephora@ION next week. they better be prepared when sister and me hit their store. *insertevillaughterhere*

i'm a lazybum

i know i was supposed to have blogged about my birthday the day after but i still have not gotten around to doing so. to do it now seems so anti climatic, so i won't be going into the details so much. it was a week well spent with my loved ones and casual friends. the pictures are up on facebook and they say a picture tells a thousand words, so yeah. :)

going back to work after a week off was like crashing back to the real world, guess i really did enjoy my week off too much to actually dread going back to work. not that i enjoyed going to work for the past year. good news is that my pay plus year end bonus will be credited into my bank account Friday night. i so cannot wait, all the things i need to buy and all the things i WANT to buy.

ugh! i sound so materialistic but obviously i won't be spending every single cent.

well at least i hope so....

boring saturday

been watching Disney movies the whole morning. i woke up rather early today despite the fact that i had a very long phone convo with boyfriend the night before. i think our longest to date. it usually lasts less than half an hour.

anyways, invited him to have dinner with my sister and me next week. we'll be going to survey stuff at Ikea together next week too. things for my room actually and i have been wanting to get curtain blinds for my room and survey a new wardrobe. my wardrobe is bursting at it's seams 'cos sister and me have way too many shoes and clothes, too many to organize in a neat manner anyways.

other than that, i have nothing more too update. mother has gone off somewhere, father will be leaving for work soon-ish. brother's off fishing and sister dear is still in bed.

okay done.

movie date and updates

caught this yesterday with Khai over at our usual spot. i won't comment on the movie just yet 'cos I'm waiting for the 2nd part to be released next July, i think. anywho, Doby the Elf was cute in the movie too bad it didn't get that much screen time.

anyways, Khai gave me an early birthday present and wished me happy 22nd instead of 21st. i actually didn't realise it until she told me 'cos i was touched that she got me a gift. coincidentally, it was the same body shop perfume i wanted to get for myself the day that i tried it last October when i went out with the boyfriend. i couldn't purchase it then 'cos i wanted to buy some stuff from our night safari trip. i swear she's psychic sometimes.

oh yeah, the name of the perfume is Japanese Cherry Blossom. it's uber nice smelling. i like.

other than that there's not much to update. work is work. life at home is as normal as it can get. looking forward to an intimate dinner with boyfriend and sister.

next month is another different story.

behind the wheel

Had an impromptu driving lesson, courtesy of my father. it was fun and an even funnier, enriching experience. there now words to describe the feeling 'cos i'll end up confusing the lot of you AND myself. the fact that we did it illegally made it a whole lot more special.

I LOVE MY FATHER 'COS HE'S JUST SO RANDOM SOMETIMES. :)

FML

"You are hereby not allowed to bring your handphones to the counters. there will be more surprise checks conducted by the Duty Officers and 100% body checks conducted if necessary. " -AC

I feel like a freaking criminal at work now, having to 'seal' my handphone before the DO comes and do their checks. i don't mind not bringing my handphone to counter during morning or afternoon shifts but it's a freaking night shift man. I'm so gonna be the first to be falling asleep in the counters. I might end up chewing on coffee grounds just to keep awake.

Okay, that wasn't a pretty picture but i have no other description as to how sleepy and not to mention bored to death i will be later on at work.

it doesn't seem fair that only Woodlands has to be so strict.

wish me luck people. -_-'

busy day

woke up early... yadayadayada...

went to Prudential's office, which is next to Singapore Shopping Centre which i didn't know existed, signed up a savings plan. i'm happy that i made a decision, and a pretty grown up one at that, for signing my own insurance plan. it's a savings cum insurance plan. which will reach maturity when i turn 46. may seem long but i plan not to touch the money at all, in case of emergency only.

i'll be canceling my savings account with POSB this Friday. it defeats the purpose, for e at least, when they decided to attach our my savings account so that it can be easily accessible via atm. that step just made the money too accessible to me since i've finally realised that i'm actually a splurger when it comes to shopping.

i made new financial decisions after finalising the insurance and savings plans details with my Prudential Agent.

the decision that i made few months ago about wanting to continue studying has been shaken up quite alot, i might add. but that is for a later day. once i've settled the muck in my head that is.

'sides the trip to Prudential, went grocery shopping at NTUC for rations for work and other important stuff with the voucher i received for my birthday which i received from work. whew! long sentence aye?

and i bought 3 new titles, one was for brother, another Percy Jackson book. glad that i got him hooked on to reading a book. 'cos that's how i improved my english and hoping that it'd help him like how it has helped me.

the other two titles are;

i'm prolly gonna be done with the books before the week ends. and then i'll get bored again.the 8th book of the HON series will be out Jan 2011 and i'm psyched to get my hands on it and devour it in one sitting like all the other titles before it.

i'm still deciding if i want to get my hands on the Immortals series by Alyson Noel and the Night World series by L.J Smith or get the Inkheart trilogy. if i do, the big problem is, where do i keep them all??

i need wall to wall book shelves *groans*

how the hell do you want me to help you?

told you to go through CDC but you said that you had to go look for the jobs yourself. well, hello, that's how they work. they help you by referring to you jobs and setting up interviews for you and all the little things in between. you still have to make the effort 'cos no damn way will the government spoon feed you by just giving you a job when you visit the CDC.

i recommended you try retail or waitressing but you said you have back problems and can't stand too long.

i recommended you try admin jobs or data entry but you said you tried them before.

how can i even begin to help you if every other idea you shove back in my face. the only reason you are finding a job now is because you want to get engaged. total lack of future planning perhaps?

ugh! i don't know why i even bother. maybe it's true when some people say i'm just too nice to others sometimes.

this is just making me dizzy, back to watching disney movies before i head off to work.

turning into a junkie

ever since i started watching make up junkie vids on youtube, I'm becoming more and more addicted to make up. I've already linked my fave make up junkie, xsparkage and I'm planning to buy most of the products used in her vids. most seems to be M.A.C products, especially the brushes. ironic how every other make up youtuber uses M.A.C brushes. it must be that good.

anws, the other products that she uses, Urban Decay and Too Faced, can actually be found at Sephora! just goes to show i don't get around much to window shop during my days off, maybe for movies and a good eat but that's about it. i need to visit Ion, soon!

okay, I'm sounding wayyy too materialistic and vain but i don't care, not much anyways. 'sides it gives me things to do.

okay bye!

finally done

changed my blog skin after weeks of searching for one that was suitable. liked this one the most. and since i decided to forgo my final theory test due to the fact that I'm sorely under revised, i edited the codes and voila!

the background can be changed and the whole skin is sweet and simple. just the way i like it. still wondering if i should put in a song or something.

ohwells, I'm done for the day. oh, and i can't wait for Nana's chalet. wootwoots!

M.I.A??

Missing my girls

missing my spazz buddy

missing things that makes me high

Most of all, i miss ME.

it's been a long time since i really did something just for myself. just lost in thought or lost in the moment of doing things i love the most. i need to remedy that soon or i might lose the grip on sanity that i have at work. trust me when i say the line is wearing thin day by day.

i wonder if i have the courage to just pack up and go on a spontaneous trip one day.

it'd be nice if i could just be M.I.A for a few days and come back a some what new person. then again I'll probably catch hell first.

just as good as the first

boyfriend frustrated me yesterday, he promised me a date but ended up saying he was joking. and he says i merajuk all the time, how can i not when he constantly pulls pranks on me.

okay, whatever, that was yesterday and it's all but forgotten, almost that is. i need to pull a prank on him myself but knowing me, I'll never succeed. heartbreak much?

anyways yesterday night, before i actually wandered off to sleep. i made a startling revelation, an epiphany of some sort. well it's startling to me 'cos i never thought of it myself. maybe others have but it's my story now so you can leave if you find it redundant or whatever.

i wondered if every single kiss that him and i shared is as good as the first time. the first kiss that sealed our relationship in all it's un-contemporary glory. our kisses have always been intense, so i was wondering if it was more intense the first time or gradually building up or it has always been the same. maybe i should try remembering our first kiss the next time we kiss. wonder how that'll turn out....

one thing is for certain, i still have butterflies in my stomach every time i'm with him. maybe the butterflies are blind and can't get out, maybe they don't want to get out, maybe they can't get out 'cos it's too dark inside. I'm typing nonsense again.

whatever the reasons the butterflies may have for still being in my tummy after two years and four months, I'll be grateful 'cos the feeling is just too damn good to give up.

I suck.

I have pictures in my camera, i should give my camera a name soon, that i'm excited to post on facebook but i can't since my computer has a virus and my camera's memory card won't put pictures into my desktop nor my laptop.

Brother's birthday pictures and most recently yesterday's date with boyfriend at Night Safari for the Halloween Horrors event. I feel stupid now. Ugh!

Wonder when i will be able to upload the pictures. maybe too long that I'll forget that i have pictures to upload.

Anyways, Boyfriend says that we should go for the Halloween horrors event next year 'cos we had waaaayyyy tooo much fun. Him especially since he got to see me scare myself silly. He actually laughed when i screamed myself half to death in the haunted mansion. If only one 9f the actors didn't freak me out so much, i would have actually survived the haunted mansion, stupid hair flinging person. well at least i survived the Train of Terror ride. :)

The make up was damn realistic. all the other actors were not that scary 'cos i convinced myself there was nothing to be scared of in such a huge crowd but there was that one clown walking around with a "knife" and sneaking up on people. *shivers*

One thing left to say, I hate clowns 'cos they give me the phobes.

Bagspace rocks!

I've finally received my bag from bagspace.sg. it's a lovely coral colour and i'm so glad i purchased it. i needed a new duffel bag anyways and the bag suits me just fine. i really recommend that you make a visit to Bagspace's website. you will fall in live with their inspired line of bags and accessories.

it's my first time ordering something online and i must say i'm very pleased that it didn't go wrong. :)

i'd like to cop me some more bags from their website but i have to wait until i settle the more important things, like bills for example.

oh and i'm sexcited for tomorrows date!

It's been awhile , again, since i blogged. i'm now at my Grandma's place, waiting for her to come home so that i can head off to work. she's gone off and send my cousin for night classes. i'm guessing she'll be home in awhile.

i usually spend my night shifts, after work, at her place. one to save up on my transportation fares and two i get undisturbed rest which i won't really get at home. the main thing being that i get to spend quality time with her. speaking of that i think i need to visit my maternal grandma soon-ish. sadly my October off days are filled with plans. mother has been nagging for me to visit my maternal grandma so i have to do it soon.

anyways, this friday i'll be going to night safari for the annual Halloween Horrors event. i'll be going with boyfriend as a treat for him 'cos he will just have completed his reservist period for the year. it's been too long since we last spend time together, the last being on the 13th of September where we had dinner and movies. the night safari date will be the first time we did something out of the norm and i'm so damn excited!

okay that's all. :)

Watching movies on youtube while playing games on babybro's xbox console because i'm dead bored. what with the stomach flu and nausea. god knows how i'm not getting headaches while multitasking with shooting aliens and watching Blood and Chocolate.

pffft!

tepi jalan dekat dgn pokok besar.

i had a funny morning. father fetched me from work, went to have breakfast at Woodlands Centre with my Uncle and his family. after that went to pick up my mother from her workplace.

that was when my Uncle proposed that we go visit both my grandfathers graves and also my great grandma's and great grandpa's graves. I didn't have the chance to actually get out of the car and follow them to visit since i wasn't properly or decently attired. mother always said that we should respect the dead as we should respect the living. maybe the next time i should go and visit.

Being at the cemetery gave me a sense of calm. anyways, let me get to the funny part.

mother was searching for her late father's grave site and got confused. when father asked her where it is she kept saying the same thing. apparently she kept saying it was by the roadside near a big tree. here is how the convo went and by that time we already found the block and path number.

Father: mane kubur bapak?

Mother: kat sinilah, dekat dengan pokok besar dekat tepi jalan.

Father: eh aku tahulah kat tepi jalan, berape banyak kubur kat tepi jalan sekarang, aku nak tahu yang mane satu.

Mother: dekat dengan pokok besar. ( by this time i was already laughing in the car)

Father: Awak, berape banyak pokok besar yang ade kat sini?

that's when they decided to exit the car and search on foot. and after that father made fun off mother's blurness. there was that instance where i tricked father into leaving mother behind. she was putting her stuff into the boot 'cos it was kinda crowded in the car what with four people in the backseat, so as mother was busy at the boot of the car with her stuff. i told father to drive off slowly and leave mother behind. i thought he was in to the prank but apparently he really thought that mother was beside me in the car and so he drove off pretty fast, i had to stop him myself 'cos mother had this funny shocked face when i looked behind. i couldn't stop laughing.

it was a funny morning. i doubt that i'll stop teasing mother about the trees and roadside thingy.

updatelah!

hello people!

i've been blogging less and less lately. just don't have the time or maybe i just don't feel like blogging anymore. the last post was only made up of three words. talk about pathetic. pffft!

there's nothing much to talk about, i can't even post up pictures on my blog 'cos my laptop can't seem to read my digicam's sd card. maybe it's becoming illiterate from lack of use. well whatever, gonna get myself a new notebook soon. a new phone too.

Raya has been boring so far. however, i cannot wait for this coming sunday's raya outing with the clique. sexcited tau. hehehs.

okay done, till next time.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA! :)

alone

i am currently home alone, as the title might suggest.

my family is over at my aunt's house, they broke their fast there. i decided not to go 'cos when i got back from work they weren't at home and i felt kinda lazy. 'sides i wasn't in the mood for company. i blame all those asstarded morons i had to clear. pffft!!

i'm seriously losing my patience, workwise that is. it feels like i'm automatically on don'tpissmeoff mode when i step into my workplace and only when i leave for home will it shut itself off. i feel like a freaking robot at some f-ed up factory scanning stupid stuff and the bloody scanner doesn't work half the time.

i keep reminding myself it is the fasting month and i shouldn't be feeling so pissed off at work.

okay, my head's blabbing right now and i can't concentrate enough to blog. -_-"

I forgot my password.....

Hello, again, it's been ages since i blogged, my girls are teasing me about it and i almost forgot what my password for my blogger account is.

basically here's the scoop,

nothing much has happened so even if did blog it would be utterly boring as hell. work has been suckish as usual ( suckish = sucking blood, as in the public has been doing for the past 8 months ), i have normal family issues and i have my own issues to take care off. yes, that's my life, full of issues.

on the other hand though,

my relationship has taken quite a major improvement. and i'm majorly happy about it. we're communicating more, we've both matured and listen more to each other, we're attuned to our feelings more than ever and i LOVE him. period.

it just proves, to me at least, that patience and a whole lot of trust and loyalty helps, a lot.

i sincerely hope that this blissful and blessed feeling won't ever go away but one can never be too sure about it. i wish my personal issues would give in to the same blissful and blessed state i have going on in my love life.

AND I MISS MY GIRLS LIKE HELL WOULD FREEZE OVER IF WE DO NOT MEET UP!!!!

I watched this show just now on Channel 5 and i must say it's quite refreshing. To see uptown girls get sent off to remote places around the world, for a week, to learn something. Well that's what their parents hope for them. To be a better person when they return from their exile.

Imagine getting "exiled" after your sweet sixteen party, I know I would get upset.

However i think i would fare much better than the girls in the series. Not that i'm bragging or anything but i believe that we Asian girls are thought to be more domestic than our western counterparts. So doing things like cooking or washing wouldn't be much of a problem for us even if done in a different way. Unless of course you have maids to see to your every needs. Then i have nothing much to say.

Anws, my week long break from hell will be starting in about 3 days time and i'm so stoked about it. I think i'm slowly getting over the fact that i'll not be going to Korea.

I have decided where to go though, KL shopping trip is confirmed, i'll be going with mother and baby brother. I'll be giving Universal Studios a miss, 'cos no point in going if not all the rides are opened, just like boyfriend said so he made a point that i agreed to. Zoo day is confirmed 'cos of the family day event that mother's company is having there.

Again, i'm so stoked, better clear my camera's memory card, 'cos i want to go trigger happy at the Zoo!

Less than a week to the start of my non-Korea holiday. lotsa choices to make.

Universal Studios, Zoo, movie date with my favourite ladies, movie date with Khai. as for the remaining 5 or so days, i still haven't decided. the problem with me is that i think i have more than enough to spend.

thinking of getting myself a netbook or maybe a new phone. clothes and accessories are a must 'cos god knows the state of my closet, total nightmare to me by the way.

and now, i feel the urge to be fickle with my decisions, just great. pfft!

goodbye Korea. :(

hello to one full week of shopping plans and maybe a trip to kl.

i'm still sad for not being able to go to Korea. Life sucks.

on the mend

i'm still sick when boyfriend has already recovered. he sorta gave me tiny piece of hell 'cos he thinks i've not been taking my medicine. when in fact my medicine has finished.

i visited my doctor again for new prescriptions. hopefully this time i make a full recovery.

hmm, other than that, my leave has been settled, i'm so glad about that.

having minor problems with the agency, hope that will be settled fast.

missing boyfriend so much, hope to meet him soon. haven't met him for about two months now.

and i'm so loving the figures in my pay packet this month!

sungguhlah sedap untuk di buat belanje!

hello people!

my flu is getting worse, my july leave has been rejected when i checked it's status after work and i'm missing a full night out with boyfriend.

these are the three things that are getting on my nerves today.

as for my july leave, i applied for it again 'cos i realised that i sent it to the wrong approving officer, so hopefully it will get approved the 2nd time. I've already purchased the tix so one way or another i am going to Korea or else there's gonna be murder in the chopsroom and i'll be the number one suspect.

if only boyfriend had not come down with the flu, if only i'd recover fast enough. my boyfriend is such a health freak sometimes that he will not meet up with me if either of us is down with something contagious. He shows he's care for me in such weird subtle ways but i still love him something fierce.

i think i'm done for today, back to stuffing tissue up my nose.

down with flu

i'm home alone right now. parents are at work, brother is at school and sister is at work i think. but she might be sleeping in brother's room since the door is closed. i haven't checked yet.

throat is awful, swallowing hurts. i think this is the flu season. the whole family is down with fever but they're recovering and i just got it.

i'm not even blogging properly. pfft!

well whatever it is, some good news. in 20 days i'll be flying off to Korea, tomorrow will be meeting up with Khai to pay the tour deposit. will be meeting boyfriend on Monday after so long. I miss him.

the bad thing is i have to wake up extra early on Sunday morning 'cos i haven't bring back my uniform from my last cycle and i'm always late for morning shift. unless father sends me to work. i should be doing my chores right about now.

taa!!

wish i could meet Love today but he's working and i'm too tired to go out. nothing else to do at home, correction, nothing much to do at home. besides spending time with the kitties and watching videos on youtube i'll prolly end up sleeping until nightfall.

Love says, "perangai macam oink-oink gitu."

p/s: is it a good sign if he suddenly starts getting jealous? i don't understand jealousy 'cos it's a foreign emotion to me.

No day off feel today.

thanks to a classification shoot i have to attend today, my shopping plans with boyfriend got burned. i should get over it but i'm not.

if i don't attend i have to produce an mc. which sucks. so i'm forcing myself to go for it 'cos firstly boyfriend told me just get it over and done with and second, i'm going because there are only 2 girls from alpha. so if i don't go my colleague will be all alone dealing with the guys.

frankly speaking, i'd rather not go at all. but what to do, they've got me on a leash and i have to come to heel.

sucks to be me. i wonder how my other colleagues are spending their day off?

three cheers for me!

My Korea trip is a success!

I'm not going alone 'cos Khai got her mom to agree to the trip and i don't have to spend much on the package 'cos I'm liaising with another travel agency.

Gosh! I'm so excited! i will be meeting Khai at Bugis, where else do we meet besides that place, to book our tickets and everything else. I think i'm going to spazz about our upcoming trip. Father seems pleased enough that I'm not going alone. he's excuse is that he doesn't want me to get bored if i were to go alone but i think there's another reason behind it.

anyways.

I failed my btt the 2nd time 'cos i failed to turn up on time. i blame the shuttle bus for being late. by the time i reached ssdc i only had the option to book another btt and the earliest possible date is on the 30th of July at 2pm. well at least i have another month or so to revise.

now am off to get ready for lunch date with sister.

travel agency hopping.

I've been searching for cheaper packages for Korea, just so i can bring a friend and not get bored. I'm also comparing travel packages to Malaysia's east coast. All those islands like Langkawi, Redang and Tioman.

Holidaying in Malaysia's east coast is boyfriend's idea and he still wants to go to Malacca with me. however, there are no tour packages to Malacca just free and easy ones, so far. he prefers going on tour 'cos even though he's used to going to Malacca with his family, he doesn't know much about the place except for the shopping spots and maybe a few other places.

I'm doing everything cos he doesn't have a working computer at home. comparing prices and packages is taxing on the brain. not to mention that it's confusing.

Boyfriend said that if i can find a cheaper package to Korea then we'll postpone our holiday to some other date since he says that I've been wanting to go to Korea like forever on the account that he's been listening to my holiday plans to Korea since last year. He's unexpectedly sweet like that sometimes, that's why I Love Him. :)

however, if i can't then we'll go on holiday together once we've decided on a package and cost of travel.

whatever the situation it may conclude to, it's still a win-win sitch for me. :)

when plans go haywire.

"Planning something is never a piece of cake, if it was then it wouldn't be life 'cos life is never easy."

I may or may not end up going to Korea for my holiday. I might be heading somewhere else in Asia. Bali, Bangkok, China, who knows but i still really want to go to Korea. The travel agency has not called me up yet regarding my request.

Well here's to hoping for the best. :)

a slight dent in my plans. i really have to scrimp and save up for the next two months. 'cos of cpf deductions, it feels like i didn't do any ot for the past 2 months. pft!

why do they have to deduct soo much for the cpf contributions when i don't even earn that much in the first place. Work's pay sucks. Mother says it will help me in the long run. Whatever, that doesn't mean i have to like it.

I think it 's time that i started investing my money, earn while i save that kinda thing. I checked out a couple of insurance websites and decided upon Great Eastern. Father has been dealing with that insurance company since i could remember, so it seems fitting to continue doing business with them. Father did say i will get my payout from that insurance company when i turn 21. But i want to decide where my money will go before that, so i don't run the risk of mishandling it. truth be told, i've not yet gotten used to managing my own finances and i still end up with less money in my bank than originally planned. so it would be nice if there was someone to financially advice me on how to handle money matters.

Investing does seem like the best solution to me now, 'cos saving money doesn't reap quite as much rewards as investing will.

KOREA!

My July leave is approved when i went to check my team's notice board yesterday afternoon after work. I was so damn excited and happy that i almost danced a jig right there in front of the notice board.

I've just made my tour booking. Father said the earlier the better since i can really plan it out and ask them the important questions that needed to be asked.

I have to ensure that i don't spend on anything at all, except for the paying of bills and the stuff that i need to buy, like a luggage bag for instance. other than that i have to hide my card from my prying eyes. i hope i can survive not spending my salary for the next two months.

i really, really hope that this trip will come to fruition. i've been waiting forever to go on a holiday by myself. and i got my wish. well at least half of it since i got my leave approved and all. did i already tell you my leave was approved? hehes.

the other half is currently in its mid stages. just emailed my booking information and enquiry to the travel agency and all that's left for now is to wait for the reply.

i have to go buy my luggage bag sometime this month.

i wonder how the weather will be like in Korea in July, and if i can make friends during my trip since i am really going on my own following a tour, a Muslim tour since Father emphasized his concern on that matter, i wouldn't have cared less actually since i'm not a fussy eater. but, that's the least i can do for him since he let me go on this trip.

I'M SO EXCITED!

Stitch!

I have been watching Lilo and Stitch, the movies as well as the series, which i just started watching today. I really miss watching that little blue dude.

if only they sold all 628 experiment plush toys here, i would make it my goal to own all. start my first ever hobby. i sound deprived aye, not having a real hobby ever. i guess as a kid i grew up fast and grew out of things pretty fast too.

anyways, today has been rather boring 'cos i was stuck. i am still stuck doing chores. my laundry is done left and i'm left with cleaning of my room before i go to bed. though i'll do that after i watch The Last Air bender. i still love watching cartoons. next to books they are the best source to kick start my imagination. animation is a better word to use instead of cartoon at my age, sounds more fitting don't you think?

that's all.

Random Updates

my girls are going to KL in a weeks' time. I'm so gonna miss them. but at least i get to see them off for their trip.

work wise, nothing much has changed. i still dread going to work and all the crap that comes with it.

i've made up with boyfriend. it's really my fault, i guess, 'cos i kinda got jealous cos' other couples get to celebrate their anniversaries but i don't. it's really petty of me. i should learn to cherish what i got before i lose it or them.

today is my night shift, again i'm not looking forward to it.

my leave is on the 11th of june, besides sending my girls off for their trip in the morning, i have no other plans besides that. prolly stay at home. or something. visit my grandmums?

well it sure is going to be a boring day, but at least i get to escape from the holiday crowd, even if for one day.

okay, just about the randomest updates ever.

it's been 2 years. i can't believe it's been 2 years.

well, the two years means nothing since i can't celebrate it.

i don't even know why i'm here blogging when it's pretty clear i have no idea what to say.

it should be one of the days to remember but i have nothing that's worth remembering today. unless of course i want to remember that i'm having one of those i'mnottalkingtoyou fights with him.

as if it's too much too ask for him to remember a date. fuck, it's an easy enough combination to remember. 0106, the 1st of june.

maybe i should start doing things my way, instead of trying to find a compromise that always falls in his favour. knowing me, i'll prolly still behave the same way since i don't have a heart to be mean to him on purpose. yes, i don't have a heart right now 'cos it's with him and he's hurting it yet again without him realising.

enough with all the metaphors since they mean nothing to anyone except for me.

i'll be waiting for him to call me 'cos that's how it works. i don't have the energy to try and work things out. i'll just let him cool down enough so we can have a civilised conversation w/o the silence or the shouting.

i feel so misinformed about life.

Angels cry - Mariah Carey ft Ne-Yo

new books! but too bad i've done reading them. ..

i bought these 2 titles just two days ago, and i'm already done reading them. if i'm going to be buying and reading books in one day, i'll have a library collection by the time the year ends. definitely going to be needing new bookshelves pretty soon.


anyways, the two books are addictive and the writing style and content of the books were nicely put in place. i'll be buying the 2nd and 3rd book of the Wicked series prolly by the end of the month and will be waiting for Awakened, which is the 8th book out of the HON series to be out in stores.

not wanting to sound selfish, i also bought a new title for babybro. he's, recently, into the Percy Jackson books. i think he got interested in it since he didn't get to catch the movie with me. so i bought him the 2nd title on account that he passed his mid year's exams.

i also promised that i'll buy him the whole series next month. actually i made a deal with him, if he can finish wrapping all my 13 books i'll buy him the series as soon as he's done wrapping.

i guess i'm done. i would have wanted to blog about how much i hate work - fucking hate it!, and how pissed i am for not getting my leave approved - fucking pissed 'cos i'm not over it yet but i know it will prolly do me no good 'cos apparently they won't know how much we suffer unless they do what we do every single day.

i'm done, no sense getting angry when there's no one to vent it on.

Date with the Minah Mengajar a.k.a Nuruz!

I had a fun time hanging out with my babygirl today. as usual we acted like complete idiots when we're together. always making way too much noise. always making too many unnecessary comments about the people and things around us. and talking about every conceivable thing we can imagine talking about.

i think it's been ages since we hung out together just the two of us. spazzing and whatnots.

it's kinda difficult to describe our day, you just have to be there and observe us. :D

anyways, way before all the spazzing and idiocy from the both of us. mother and me went out early in the morning, okay so not early, maybe around lunchtime, to go buy kain untuk baju raya this year. got it done in about one and a half hours. we're wearing light grey in different tones this year. oh, and brother got two more different colours. i'm a bit unhappy about that but nehmind, i'll buy my own kain once my pay comes in, i already have 2 different designs in mind and so i'll be buying 2 more different sets of kain.

do not mind the mix of malay words, i can't be bothered to blog in total english.

bye world!

Anxiety

I just found out that June leave results won't be out till mid-month. total bummer 'cos i'm totally delaying the plans. So sorry girls. :(

It just makes me that much anxious. well, anyways, i failed my BTT the other day and i have about another month to study for it again.

very short update 'cos my msn meetup with the girls is in session right now. next time then. :)

over and done with, for now.

the law paper is done, found it to be pretty easy, the mcq at least. other than that nothing much. just hoping that i get the results i want when they announce it.

i'm reading up for my basic theory test which is in a few days. i know what time it is and what session it is but i don't know which classroom it's held in. hopefully, i pass that too 'cos i don't want to waste money booking another slot. besides i think i'm a bit too old to be taking my car licence now, instead of 3 years ago. well whatever, at least there's a car waiting for me to drive it instead of having to buy my own bike when i pass my tp test. sadly i'll be taking my bike licence after i pass my car one. too old to be taking my bike licence anyways.

i'm complaining again. i need chocolate okay bye!

the collection and IMM-ing.

hello again, I've actually been thinking of deleting my blog, for real this time but obviously i changed my my mind again. well that's me stupidly fickle minded.

anyways, I've recently acquired a collection of books, not a big one since i have only 11 of them currently. I didn't realise i had that many in a span of 2 months since i started buying my own books. the sad thing is I've read all of them at least twice, 3 times for the House of Night series. i know I'm a freak reader.

I also bought The Twilight series, in a collection box and i got 4 sort of bookmark looking things, it's in the 1st picture as you can see. the box was sold at about 50 bucks after discount. i was damn happy that day. the sad thing is i'm already at the 3rd title and running out of titles very soon. can't understand why the fuck i can't read slower. hmph!

all my titles are supernatural fiction stuff, to do with vampires, witchcraft, werewolves and such. it's nice to escape into their pages for a few solid hours, i can get very engrossed when reading books. i remembered one time that i didn't even realise that my phone was ringing. turns out the caller was boyfriend and he was somewhat pissed that i didn't answer on the 1st call 'cos i usually do. there are many other instances but very much the same, me engrossed in a book and shutting out the reality that is life, my life. it works like an antidepressant, like how my cats make me less depressed about life.

okay, let's not bore you with my life's boring details.

last Thursday, my parents, baby brother and me went to IMM to get our house a new refrigerator 'cos the one at home is dying. it was fun and all but the thing about shopping for household items with mother can be very stressing. I'll not explain 'cos i don't want to get myself confused 'cos that's what she does confuses us as to her preferences. I'd rather take mother clothes shopping on any other given day.

so anywho, she made her choice and the new refrigerator will be home delivered tomorrow. after that we went around IMM just looking at stuff. we went to have our dinner and the end.

the ride home was pretty quiet on the account that mother exhausted everyone with her decision making. pfft!

p/s: i hope my leave is approved and i hope i have enough money saved up for the two overseas trip. *crossesfinger*

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before i forget, while waiting for mother to make her really final decision, brother decided to test out the equipments at best denki. here are a few pictures. i tried the machine that looks like a saddle and it just felt wrong, maybe it's just me. i always have been too imaginative for my own good and my thoughts always goes in the opposite direction.

goodbye world, until next month i suppose. :/

random lah

i wonder what will happen if i decide to find perfection in my pride. just listening to my needs for a change. well whatever, i'm not making any damn sense, even to myself.

the current thoughts in my head are the upcoming trips to KL and, hopefully, Korea. the law exam and my btt are in my head too. boyfriend issues are forever there, permanently etched into my brain is more like it.

work is normal. as normal as it can get. life's normal too, i guess.

lately, i've been feeling like i have some decisions to make, major decisions. it's like life, my life i mean, is making a major turning point and the decisions i make will either make me or break me.

actually, breaking again would not be that much of a problem 'cos i've felt how it is to break.

well i guess that's all.

movies schmovies

i watched this 2 movies within the last few days. and it was worth it.



watched Cop Out with the girls, we were laughing so hard during the entire length of the movie. need i mention that it was the first ever movie that we watched together. the first one since we became the closest of friends in 3 years.



i watched this movie just yesterday night with my family, in 3D! okay sorry i'm still new to this 3D thingy so ignore the excitement. the movie was great, it was damn funny too. the main Dragon, Toothless the Night Fury is so adorable. if only dragon's existed aye? i wouldn't mind having the Night Fury as a pet.

bottomline is, the movies are worth watching. so don't miss it.

talking about movies, i think Avatar is still showing at Shaw, Lido. it's been 3 months and it's still showing? i might just catch it if i have nothing better to do.

Update(s).

hello world, i'm back again. though i don't know when i'll be back blogging about my oh-so un-exciting life.

well anyways, i had a movie date with Khai. we watched Alice in Wonderland, in 3D! okay, ignore my excitement about watching Johnny Depp in 3D. it was my first time watching a movie in 3D. so, again, ignore my jakun-ism.

the movie itself was okay, the graphics were beautiful but in the end the plot just went dry. if it wasn't for Johnny Depp being n the movie i wouldn't have watched it, so yeah, i have this super big crush on him. now i'm sounding just a tad bit like a crazed fan girl.

i had major fun with Khai, we talked about almost everything. and we did alot of stupid stuff. and because of that, i'm totally excited to meet my girls this weekend.

by the way i watched Alice in Wonderland again with my siblings. not that great watching it w/o 3D. then we went to Popular to browse book titles. found a few titles and a few series of books to get my hands on with my next pay packet. I have this sudden need to read other vampire type books after and other than the Twilight Saga.

this is a heads up for those of you who want some other vampire related book to read other than the Twilight Saga, it's called the Hose of Night Series. i find it more believable than Twilight 'cos Twilight is more fantasy/romance based whereas the House of Night series to me is more realistic in a sense 'cos the way the authors included how it feels to be a teen and having supernatural powers like the main protagonist has.

I've read the first 6 books, in 5 days cos i'm a freak like that, and am waiting excitedly for the 7th book to be in stores.

so yeah, these are the books i'm talking about.

bye everybody. :)

PARAMORE!

One word = AWESOME!

The best time i had this year, yet. it felt real good to let loose and rock out to their music and Hayley's voice was AMAZING! The band was AMAZING. okay, that's all. You all know where i'm getting at. I'm a die hard fan. and for sure i won't be missing their next concert here. I think i'd just die if i miss it.

P/S: i'll be privatising my blog if i don't have the time to blog. so if it's private means, i haven't had the time to update. :)

Dare I lose control again?

bathed the cats, well except for Gegerl 'cos she's quite a handful for a fat kitty And after bathing the first 5 of my cats, getting extremely wet in the process, i decided to ask father to handle Gegerl.

okay basically today is a boring day. nothing to do. no one to go out with. spent my day in front of the telly channel surfing 'cos there is nothing to watch. i must sound like a pig, right?

other than that i have been thinking of losing a few pounds. it's hard to do when you can't take that first step and go jog at least twice a week and to start eating healthier. going out to exercise alone is no fun. i keep telling my sister that we should go jogging when i have the time but never actually doing it 'cos i'm always sleeping in instead of waking up to do what i wanted to do in the first place.

gaahs, why is it so hard? work has gotten me depressed and stressed out. my cycle didn't come last month and i'm worried because of that, worried that there may be something wrong with my body. i'm also worried about the stoopid xam i have to sit for in april 'cos i'm still struggling to study for it.

i dont know how i can keep up with all of this. i always feel like crying lately, hell, i always feel like crying whenever i'm at work. if this keeps up i may end doing someting stoopid lke overeating again and there goes my plan of losing weight.

i think i need a holiday. a long holiday.
i definitely need to lose weight to make me feel better about myself.
i don't want to lose it for a second time. the first time was enough, definitely more than enough.

Since Resorts World Sentosa opened recently, the traffic at work has increased. Thank you very much.

anyways, i'm on mc today cos i reported sick. tummy problems nothing too serious though. i watched Wolfman with my colleague yesterday night. sound effects were awesome, graphics were awesome and the storyline was pretty well thought out. it had a sad ending though. i'd rate it 4/5 stars only cos the sound effects scared the shit out of me. hhaha.

Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief, another must watch. it's a bit Harry Potter-ish in Greek mythology form albeit less darker than Harry Potter series has turned out to be. the dialogue between characters are funny, some of it.

anyhow, i'm watching the latter again today just to kill time. hehs. there are a lot of movies coming soon that i would like to catch. a long list so i won't bother typing them all out.

that's all.

Random events

the past week at work, well it wasn't that great. the computer system had to go berserk and i had to deal with impatient people. seriously people. we can't clear you if the system goes haywire. you just have to learn to be a little bit more patient. cooperation is much needed from you guys. thank goodness some people understand the situation and don't mind waiting just a little bit longer.

anywho, here are some pictures of our furry friends taken a few days ago.

first there is this cat who sorts of strays around my estate. and whenever i come back from my afternoon shift she always happens to be under my block and she will follow me into the lift and up to my house to ask for food. i swear i find that cute. i think she should be an adolescent female cat. a nice subtle grey colour. reminds me of Luckylove abit though Luckylove didn't have a long tail.


the pictures aren't that clear 'cos i was using my phone's camera and i forgot to turn on the flash.

well anyways, the next pictures are of the present my parent's bought for my cousin. a dwarf rabbit. it's an adorable little thing. i absolutely love the feel of it's soft fur and the colour of it's fur. the rabbit doesn't grow that big since it's a crossbreed. and, my cousin named it Lela. spoil sikit tapi takpe rabbit tu tetap cute and adorable.


okay, i'm done :)

I.MISS.THEM.

Azura- " Sorry to disturb u girls at this hour......its just that i miss u girls soooo much that i had tears in my eyes. Weird rite? Hehe. I'm so adorable kan? Have a gud rest n sleep tite k darlingss...muakz! I miss u girl so much!! "

I woke up to that message and it made my morning just like that. I have a stupid smile on my face since then. Knowing that someone misses you until they tear up is really something, huh? it's a wonderful feeling indeed to feel loved when someone says they miss you. i'm just damn lucky to be surrounded by kick ass friends.

i have nothing left to say here because words alone aren't enough to describe the friends i have with me. i can go on forever trying to find the exact words or sentences to describe them.

oh, Azura is forever adorable and my Favourite ladies are forever kick ass!

fyi, i may be changing my link soon. :)

Sister's 18th Birthday :)

i WAS supposed to blog about her birthday on the day itself but i got tired and i had work the following morning. sooo, i'm blogging about it now. for the more detailed version of her birthday you can go read it at my sister's blog 'cos the details according to me are now a bit fuzzy.





okay, the pictures aren't in order 'cos i'm lazy to put them in order. i think ever since i started wroking full time, i've lost my zest for blogging. okay, anyhow....

we celebrated her 18th at my aunt's house, maternal side of the family. this was because we happened to be visiting my maternal grandma there so my parents decided to celebrate it there too. it was nothing too fancy, just a small family gathering, albeit a sweet one.

the cake mother bought was superb, Polar Puffs and Cakes have the best tasting cakes. at least for me lah. and, since it was her 18th, i bought her a sweet something from Citigems. that was her birthday present from the whole family. and me being a wonderfully terrific elder sister, self praise much? , i bought for her tickets to watch Paramore LIVE! i was excited as she was when i bought them tix at sistic on her birthday.

we got awesome seats too, not too far from the stage. i guess you can say it's somewhere in the center. i will be watching the Paramore concert with her and her babyboy. you can say it will be one of the events of the year for me. there are alot of dates this year that i'm looking forward to. my brain is already busy planning for those dates on the side.

i can definitely feel that the first few months of my 2010 will be a whirlwind of activities. and the most important one for now is my LAW EXAM. i think i'm going to overwork my brain until April comes.

vet trip and hospital visits

the past two weeks have been very tiring for me.

last week i sent my two kittens, Nala and Fluffy to the vet to get them spayed. the whole thing cost me about 2oo bucks since both of them were already in heat. after the vet trip Nala seemed to have lost her appetite for a few days. that made me worry and i couldn't concentrate at work. imagine that huh, a cat makes you lose your concentration at work. i made two mistakes since i started clearing people on my own but all's good, nothing serious.

and about two weeks ago my Nenek was admitted into the hospital, TTSH, because she coughed out blood or something like that. so my sister and me visited her together. i'm not really sure what's wrong but i heard it has something to do with an infection in her lungs. she has had tuberculosis before so maybe that's the culprit.

she has already been discharged 'cos the doctor deemed her fit to return home. but yesterday she was admitted back into hospital 'cos of the coughing out blood. so maybe i'll be visiting her again in a few days' time.

anywho, preparations for the upcoming birthdays and wedding anniversary are on the way, i've bought most of the presents except for one. i have no idea what to buy actually. but i have to decide and get it over and done with before the 2nd of February. i need ideas!

life is sucha a riot sometimes.

random events :)

nothing much to update actually.

first i saw nadd and sul while working yesterday. and today i had the "good fortune" to be at the green channel the whole day. and at the motorcycle side of it lagi. wah, aku tkleh angkat die nye asap and habuk.

anyways, i'd like to share an old story, it happened a few weeks ago and only now i remembered to blog about it. okaylah cerite dah basi but tetap aku nak blog pasal itu cerita.




well this cat was loitering outside the clinic near my place when i went there to get my mc for the reunion event. while i was waiting for my turn to go and see the doctor, the cat came to me and sat by my feet. the most adorable moment of 2009. and it wanted to go into the room with me.

okay, so the story has lost it's excitement the way i told it but anywho, don't you think that the cat is adorable? i have a thing for light grey coloured cats. especially since Babylove's disappearance.

that's about it. :)

Happy New Year!

the new year is here and everybody, well almost everybody, will be thinking of new year's resolutions. i used to think that it'd be good to have some new goals every new year but now i think that all of it is just a whole load of crap.

i keep bringing the previous resolutions forward anyways so might as well get that over and done with and then i can think of something new to do. i'm still at that lose weight and stay slim resolution from like, three years ago and i've not effectively done it. my weight keeps on fluctuating. so that chapter's closed.

as for what i think about MY 2009, well it's easier for you guys to find out for yourselves by going through my archives. having me summarize MY 2009 will take weeks i think 'cos a lot of events happened. the good, the bad and the downright nasty. well there were a few days during MY 2009 that made it bearable and one of it was my Birthday Bash. :)

and as to how i celebrated New Year's Eve. it was nothing fancy, i didn't attend the many countdown parties that usually happens 'cos i didn't want to wear my self out since the next day is my morning shift. instead i spend it with sister and her boyfriend. we had dinner and then watched a movie. we watched Sherlock Homes to be more exact. it was a great movie 'cos of the wit and the plot of the movie was laid out pretty good. Guy Ritchie really did well with directing the movie and his parts as Lord Blackwood were acted quite well.

okay enough about the movie critique, basically that's how my new year went. i spent the better half of the day murdering my feet, yes i did since i decided to wear heels. the black suede one's with the flower motif that looks extremely tiny when i wear it. but i managed to survive. hehs.

oh before i forget, the traffic at work today was just so amazing that i couldn't believe it. for once since i started work there wasn't any MAJOR jam at the Causeway, let alone a slight one. to put it more simpler, i had time to joke around and talk about stupid stuff with my mentor while we WAIT for the cars to come in. i really made full use of the 'free' time 'cos it was certainly a rare coincidence. some of the passengers even commented on it. what luck! haha!