now iym listening to SORROW by FLYLEAF, over and over again...
i wonder when my joy will come, all i am feeling right now is misery and confusion..

aniwaes back to todae,
my right eye is still swollen and now iym making full use of my left eye to do everday things lyk cooking, watching tv and blahblahblahs =)
it got worse during the nite, and now it looks like it almost swollen shut. NR msg me in the morning and i didnt answer cos i culdnt see the keypads on my cell, i couldnt even make a simple call to tell her that iym not comng to skool cos i cant see ......:(

ystd i msged my fren, his name is Lan something...hehhs i forgot,
all i can say is that he is a very adorable guy, very manje oso lyk me =D
he invited me to have dinner with me at arab street, sometime next week, i said ouhkay and he asked i realli dun mind going to arab street uh? then i said "nah, kiter tak cerewet.."
cool rite cos its been a long time i had dinner there.....
i think iym starting to get infatuated with him....idk if thats gd or bad considering my depression is at an all time high lately....
my gfs and my cuzzzie told me to get to know him better before embarking on a new r/s... i know now that he is a caring guy, understanding too cos he took the time to understand my depression, iym grateful for that and idk why either...=)
ouh ouh he is also a shy person uh.....
what else can i say about him eh???
thats all i guess...

later imma try to revise my lm again and gm too, lest i want to fail both modules during exams later....
seriously idk y i still bother going to skool wen i cant learn anything. iym still interested in my studies cos i nid to make it to poly for my parents sake, i know now that i'm no longer interested in my other studies cos i just come on sundayy for those classes and sit there pretending to listen and wen it comes to exams i dun study , i just attend and write crap on the exam paper....
its times lyk this i feel lyk shouting at the top of my lungs..

" MYRA U'RE A WORTHLESS PERSON, DOING TIHNGS JUST TO PLEASE THE PPL U LOVE!"

thats all, bye

i'm always wondering when my joy will come.....