Longest post ever ;)

hello people, been quite a while since i last updated and now im regretting it cos there are alot of things i have to post about. pffft!!

i think im gonna do it in sections, starting with the most earliest which is pictures of the NDP preview. next imma blog about my lil cousins birthdays. after that will be posting about my episode which involved pills and the hospital. and then onto the tags that Nadd and Ifah wanted me to do. finally i'll blog about how im going to try to make my life abit better.

Mayybbbbeeeeee, just maybeee.... i'll blog abit about my lovelife. and so i seek your co-operation by leaving me tags, since this will be the longest post ever.


NDP Preview

As stated on the post dated Sunday 13 July, i went to the ndp preview with Nana(puteri tenggelam timbul). there i watched the fireworks cos the show had too contrasting colors since im already half-blind. sheesh!!

and i saw Mr Moon in his uniform. aaaahhhh!

fcuking hot and sexy and delicious and any other words you would use to describe a man in uniform for those of you who fall into my category which is
" Drools whenever she sees a man in uniform "

ATTN: Does not apply for those in the army, especially the infantry unit. Sorry aye but i have bad nightmares involving them. hehsToooo bad i didnt think to video or atleast take a picture when they were marching past. haish.

okay here comes the picture parts. from here on end let the picturesss do the talking aye. ;D

notice the texture of the sky covered with the residue smoke from the fireworks, it looks kinda romantic to me.

Misha and Rian's Birthday.

Rian's bdae came bfore Misha's actuali but the story goes like this,

on the day of rian's bdae, she brought goodie bags to her class but the teacher sang birthday song for the wrong person sooo my aunt decided to bake her a cake, a nice one at that, to celebrate her bdae again.

as for misha, we didnt buy her prezzies on the actual day of her bdae, so my parents decided to come again the following week to give her the prezzies. and rian just so happened to be there. so we just indulged them lah.

thats what i think, kids should be indulged once in a while, not spoilt rotten to the core. like one of my other lil cousin. ooops, might have got a bit testy bout that. hehs

misha akila, myra and rian

look at the cake and droooool people. just droooooool as much as you want. hehs

the birthday cutie pies. :)

Tripping on pills

i know ya'll think that i tried to kill myself or something similar just based on the title alone but i am telling the whole truth when i say that i was just damn frustrated that i couldnt get to sleep and thus i took the anti depressants that my psychie gave me to get to sleep. i didnt take those pills at one go but took them bit by bit, but still i ended up in hospital, i thank Nana for convincing me to go to the hospital. i know i messed up but when u have an emotional breakdown like i did anything u do will seem right by you. i swear though, that it will be the only time ever that i overdose myself.

the weird part was that they didnt flush out the pills from my system nor was i put on the IV drips my godmother clarified that. she asked what my intention was when i overdosed myself and i said to her that my only intention was that i wanted so badly to sleep. and she said that was why my condition was not that critical nor was it that deadly serious.

in other words in my religion it all depends on what our intention in our heart is, if i had the intention to kill myself i would probably be in a very critical condition and would have died cos my ex-tuition teacher said that anti depressants were much stronger than panadols.

then again it was still stupid of me to even overdose myself just solely based on my desperation to get to sleep.

the worst part is that my Kak Yul and gfs has forbidden me to tell bf, it hurts me cos i feel so damn guilty for betraying his trust. that i what i have to live with until i feel that its time for him to know and i also have to live with the constant headaches that came with overdosing myself. and if he ever reads this part and gets freaking angry, idk wtf i will do. prolly run and hide?? i did bring this upon myself so whatever consequence coming my way i will have to face it.

p/s. Ifah, Irah, Jamie and Jane, if u girls happen to read this part of the post. i would be really, really grateful if you girls keep it to yourselves. cos i KNOW that the others will never understand why i did this even though its stated plainly, clearly and as bluntly as possible.

p/p/s. for the other readers, if you people want to spam my tagboard, well go ahead. i really dun mind cos its human nature to judge others by what they do and what they look like. but hopefully you take the time to read and understand, if you cant then i cant do anything. :)

Tags by Ifah and Nadd

Ifah's tag

(A) list down ten random facts about urself that others may or may not know of.

1. im secretly adorable. hehs
2. corner me and i swear i'll bite
3. i adore dark humor
4. im a realistic person
5. im secretly in love with johnny depp
6. i must have chocolates at least once a week
7. i always wish i was a witch
8. i can understand what my cats want when they meow to me
9. i adore the color violet
10. i want to rule the world!!!!

(B) list down ten things or people ur thinking of now.

1. My Mr Moon!!!!
2. the Twilight Series by Stephenie Meyer
3. chocolates
4. a baking set
5. Johnny Depp??
6. my gfs
7. my cats
8. my cuzzies
9. world peace ;)
10. more world peace ;);)

(C) tag 5 other people to do this random activity.

1. Nana
2. Nadd
3. Nuruz
4. Shan
5. Shaie

Nadd's tag

7 things that scare you

1. Allah
2. losing my parents
3. dying in a horrible manner
4. losing my cats
5. losing my memory
6. losing my sanity
7. aliens??? hehs

7 things you like the most

1. chocolates
2. books, but i've a limited supply. pffft!!!
3. my nyai's cooking
4. my mum's cooking
5. pasta
6. ice-cream
7. more chocolates. ;)

7 important things in my room

1. bed
2. clothes
3. makeup stuffs
4. fan
5. lappy
6. full length mirror
7. STITCH!!!!!!

7 random facts about me

1. i have dark humor
2. i can talk to my cats ;)
3. my english writing is uncharacteristically superb. { right nadd?? }
4. i suck at malay
5. i cant actuali draw
6. i like chocolates
7. more chocolates

7 things i plan to do before i die

1. go for Hajj
2. safari holiday in Africa
3. safari holiday in Australia
4. skydiving
5. basejumping
6. mountain skiing
7. swim in the deep blue ocean

7 things i can do

1. irritate my mom
2. irritate my sister
3. irritate nuruz. hehs
4. irritate my cats
5. eat chocolates
6. multi-task
7. eat more chocolates

7 things i cant do

1. i cannot bully bf
2. i cannot sleep
3. i find it hard to judge people
4. balance myself?? my center of gravity is sorely lacking
5. cant hold a grudge
6. live without chocolates
7. live without my phone

7 things you are attracted to in the opposite sex

1. charm
2. sense of humour
3. knowing when not to cross the line
4. treats me nicely
5. the way his body smells
6. his nose. mancung la oii
7. for just being himself :)

7 things i say often

1. shuddup lah to bf
2. diamlah to bf
3. okay fine to bf
4. ehhh to bf
5. kurang ajar eh to bf
6. gigit kang baru tau to bf
7. whatever to bf and everybody else ;)

7 people to do this survey

1. Jane
2. Jamie
3. Dee
4. Liyana
5. Ifah
6. *insertname*
7. *insertname*

my fingers have already cramped up .

and if i dont do a part two i'll prolly have difficulty writing tml.

so wait for the next installment tml.

chey , myra bbl mcm phm.

sayonara readers.