this day sucks since yesterday..sure everything was fun in the afternoon with my gfs ...shopping at expo's mega john little sale

the moment i stepped into the house the happiness left me in a breeze...just looking at the condition of the kitchen I took the time to clean made my blood boil ...and i am so confident as to who was responsible for the mess.....that person cant even take a plastic bag from the corner and put it in the bin before throwing waste food into it ..
but nooo....
he just threw it in their for the rest of us to do it PROPERLY FOR HIM
dammit that is just so stupid ur lyk older thzn me and u act as if iym ur maid,
stupid fucker. and i call you my cousin. pfffttt!!!

i could have blogged about this yesteray nite but chose not too because i didna know wat and how to even begin blogging...



i cried because i couldnt go to sleep
and i cried myself to sleep because i couldnt go to sleep...
i tried many things but it doesnt have the effect i want

&& i cried wen i woke up becos i didnt wake up when iym suppossed to wake up...

now feel lyk crying again cos i dun have control over my life, ...
its like this depression is a controlling me more and more each passing day
and its harder and harder for me to be happy not to mention harder for me to wake up and get to sleep and just enjoy the little things in life to the fullest ...


cant blog no more, feel anxious all of a sudden lyk something bad is gonna happen