i'm already at my wit's end with those students of mine. shouting and screaming doesn't work. being fair doesn't work. being composed but firm lagi tak work. so how like that? being friends with them? not a chance 'cos they already treat me like an imbecile.
i was close to tears just now. seriously. i have a lot on my plate with their final year exams coming and parents complaining that their children ain't doing their work. what is a girl to do. i believe i'm the most helpless and pathetic teacher and this isn't even a full class of 40. just 4 students, 4 children that i can't handle.
i used to say that i preferred the afternoon session but i take that back now that i've experienced for myself the agony of having to handle them. i find that i can reason with the morning session students rather than the afternoon session. though the morning session students are younger than the afternoon session ones.
if i did not need this job i would have already declined it but seeing as my family's financial situation is not that good i have to take the job. not only that the workplace is only 5 - 10 mins away from my house, i save a lot because i do not have to worry about transportation nor lunch money. that is unless of course i want to buy lunch instead of going home but that won't cause my pockets to burst.
whatever it is, i have to find a new method and hold on. if not for my family's sake then my own.
GOD give me strength.
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