tomorrow, dearest nyai is going off for her pilgrimage and im gna miss her like sooo much. this will be the first time she will be going for her pilgrimage without my gramps who passed away last year. hope ALLAH swt blesses his soul. her flight will be at 6pm. idk wich terminal yet but im going nonetheless. too bad the flight is in the aftn when its usually freaking early in the morning. i know i shudnt be complaining but mr moon had wanted to go out with me now it has to be cancelled unless mother lets me go out with him at nite and return somewhere in the early morning. big chance thats never gna happen but im still hoping. =).
asked him why he wanted so badly to go out with me and he didnt ans. i know he misses me, if not he wont waste his time calling me every single night. why is it just so hard for guys to admit they miss someone sometimes. how the male brain works is way beyond me.

nad or shud i say Deeranae, is now performing at her first gig at the Glass House @ S.A.M ( idk that such a place existed until D told me). its a freestyling rap gig and her partner in crime, Sheeq is also performing. rapping freestyle is not her thing but im sure she will do great on stage, besides her producer has helped her alot. aniwaes the name of the gig is Popcorn Playa, and i quote D - " babe, all the dopest hiphoppers in the biz will be there, i hope Estafeelo does well enough for a first appearance."

and so i told Estafeelo will do great on stage, i also mentioned the fact that she has been practicing like forever, not that it is a good thing cos she has been neglecting her studies, but im still happy for her. what else can a sister do?

in case ya'll were wondering who the hell Estafeelo is,
its actually the name that Deeranae and Sheeq came up with to represent them. u know, like a dynamic duo group name.

i cant go out and search for jobs no more, since my sis has yet to show any positive changes and someone has to keep an eye on her, 24/7 if possible.

went only for MLP, had a revision session for next weeks theory test. lectures 1-5. later have to go revise for the AC2 test, lectures 1-12 excluding lectures #11. after this tests i cant wait for term break to begin. still have yet to research further on the karl fischer auto-titrator thingymajig. its killer to get the appropriate articles online cos each one bears the same sentences and whatnot. went to WRL ystd and still cant find books or articles on the machine. tml maybe try the school library if still no reference, i will drag my sister down to the NLB reference corner to do my research.

bye ppl

prac ass was okay,

now i feel like bashing something

i need an avenue to vent my frustrations

just another one of those moments

*screams her head off*

i shud be in skool right about now but the meeting with D's teacher dragged abit so im only able to attend the prac ass, this is gonna be a quick post ( i hope ), cos i need to get my ass to school in about ten mins or so.

i need to teach D how to prioritize her dreams and her studies. and she has to learn to manage her time. she is very lucky to have teachers who care about her and have nothing bad to say about her, unlike me , always having a disagreement with my teachers. aniwaes the alarm has sounded and i shud be getting my ass off to school and take my prac ass, its bradford's test or so some people say and its supposed to be individual but im hoping its group work cos the bradford's test is quite lengthy and we need to use the spectrophotometer to read results, killer machine especially since im not reali sure how to use it that much.

sayonara, for now
am off to have killer fun with the GFs after the prac ass.

p.s. mr moon made me angry ystd and on purpose, why he does that on purpose is beyond me. *sighs quite heavily*

when bad things happen to good people,
how is it fair when good things happen to bad people.
seems unjustified to me, but god made life unfair for a reason.
and it is up to us to overcome it.

but the first step is always the hardest.
or maybe near impossible
however, with the support of the people you love
and the love they have for you.

no first step is too hard
nothing is impossible.
knowing that no matter how many times you fall
they will be there always to catch you.

-myra=)



i've realised that i've fallen soo many times but the ones who have always been there for me were my parents, my sister and my gfs. and also a few good souls who deigned to listen and acknowledge my problems.

so i thank you,
& if i ever made ears bleed, im sori. hehe

my parents, deeranae, nana, zura, zulfa, nadd, shan, shaie, yani, ifah, irah and last but not least my Mr Moon =)

its been awhile since i last blogged. nothing much has happened this past few days.
my days were basically like this,

wake up-bath-school-rch home-bathe-t.v-dinner-sleep
super mundane man. haish.

niwaes i need to find job, and this time i will not change my mind again. job will help me pass the hols away and i earn some to pay for my stuffs.
mainly my cellphone bills etc.etc.

for today,
i went for the complimentary consultation at London Weight Management ( some of you will prolly snigger at this cos, i dun look fat. ) and found out some interesting facts, im flabby all over and i have cellulite everywhere. and i have water retention problems.
the consultation was the free part, but the package i had to pay.
just shows that there is no free stuff in the world, there are always strings attached
pfffft!!!
luckily, mother didnt mind and luckily i had some cash saved up to pay for the package. its nt expensive cos it went all the way down frm $1,500 to $300++. but it is expensive for us students and this is a one time offer for a limited time only.

next time myra must learn not to be itchy handed and send an sms just cause she saw the advert on tv and thought that she would try cos she believed she wont get chosen -____-*

the consultation turned out great and i experienced my first ever spa like treatment, cos after the consultation we were given a trial of the treatment we signed up for, i lost 800g but gained it back cos i ate dinner just now when i know im not supposed to. heee
im going to continue and finish the package i signed up for and btw the whole process was very transparent and the consultant described why it was so but sadly i cant remember what she said, all i know is that the process is transparent.

im hoping to continue my treatment by next month when i complete the payment.

that about it,
now im off to do my research on Karl Fischer and his auto-titrator thingymajig
au revoir
sayonara



he's making me fall ever deeper with his cheekiness

life mathematics

i just had to post this xD
enjoy aye readers =)

A LOGICAL SOLUTION.
Now here is a problem that finally has a formula for getting to the bottom of an age old problem. From a strictly mathematical viewpoint it goes like this:
What Makes 100%?
What does it mean to give MORE than 100%?
Ever wonder about those people who say they are giving more than 100%?
We have all been to those meetings where someone wants you to give over 100%.
How about achieving 103%?
What makes up 100% in life?

Here's a little mathematical formula that might help you answer these questions:

If: A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z is represented as:
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26.

Then:
H-A-R-D-W-O-R-K
8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98% and
K-N-O-W-L-E-D-G-E
11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96%

But,
A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E
1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100%
And,
B-U-L-L-S-*-*-T
2+21+12+12+19+8+9+20 = 103%

AND, look how far a** kissing will take you.

A-*-*-K-I-S-S-I-N-G
1+19+19+11+9+19+19+9+14+7 = 118%

So, one can conclude with mathematical certainty that While Hard work and Knowledge will get you close, and Attitude will get you there, it's the Bulls**t and A** Kissing that will put you over the top.

Friends

we all have people we call friends. but how u treat them is a whole different matter.
sure, we could have clicked the moment we met.
sure, we have helped each other and will continue to help each other, past, present or future.

but when attitude changes and we drift apart we can only depend on memories to remember the fun we had.

"I think that the only reason people hold onto memories so tight is because memories are the only things that dont change; when everybody else does." - Unknown

this quote can best describe the sitch im in right now. not that im being judgemental, cos im perfectly sure that i have a few 'traits' in me that my gfs dun like. but in the end who deosnt. my sis can be very demanding at times but i still can accept it cos she does not go overboard. the point im trying to make is that, when around people u should watch what u say, think before u say anything and be aware of what u are going to say lest it hurts someone's feelings or make that person hate you in that tiny space of a moment, especially to people you call your friends.

i hope im not being harsh when u readers read this. i just feel the need to vent my anger and say something. but still i know i have no right to be cruel and i will not let my anger get the best of me but i pray that u realise ur mistakes before its too late because the last resort to any situation will do no one any good.

if i made someone angry, please forgive me, but i have a right to say what i want and when i want because this blog is of my life. however be grateful that i made it a habit not to name names when i post about certain issues.

*17 most important things to remember in life*

1. Never give up on anybody;miracles happen everyday.

2.Be brave even if your not, pretend to be. No one can tell the difference.

3. Think big thoughts, relish small pleasures.

4. Learn to listen. Oppurtunity sometimes knocks very softly.

5. Never deprive someone of hope, it might be all they have.

6. Strive for excellence, not perfection.

7. Don't waste time greiving over past mistakes. Learn from them and move on.

8. When someone hugs you let them be the first to let go.

9. Never cut what can be untied.

10. Don't expect life to be fair.

11. Remember:Success comes to the one that acts first.

12. Never waste an oppurtunity to tell someone you love them.

13. Remember that nobody makes it alone. Have a greatful heart and be quick to acknowledge those who help you.

14. Never underestimate the power of a kind word or deed.

15. Laugh alot.A good sense of humor cures almost all of life's ills.

16. Don't miss the magic of the moment by focusing on whats to come.

17. Watch for big problems. They disguise big oppurtunities.

there were supposed to be some hilarious pics that i was supposed to post. laziness has taken over. so if u readers want to know what im talking bout, please proceed to Nuruz's blog.
thank you and have a nice day.

*snores loudly*

i went to ECP with Mr Moon. it started with me teasing and irritating the hell out of him during the bus ride to ECP. but when we got there he was the one irritating and teasing the hell out of me. GRRRR!!!

i feel like biting his head off right about now.

upon reaching ECP. we slowly made our way to Starbucks to have late lunch i think. aniways his younger bro works there and thus he only had to pay for the food he ordered, the drinks were free. and because i forgot to bring my wallet, he was really happy that he got to treat me. pfffft!!!

&&& his bro and him look totally alike 'cept that Mr Moon is more "fat-ter" than his bro. xD

during lunch he took a vid of me, which was one of the reasons i got irritated with him in the first place. sheesh. well GFs if you gals wna see the two vids i'll let u gals see it.

then we walked to the waterbreaker and there he

1)threatened to throw me into the water

2)bit my arm 5 times

3)dared me to do stuff

and so i pinched him hard on the arm, bit him twice, on his hand and then tried to push him in the water, i failed miserably at the last one because he was way too strong and he knows it. xD

then we walked to the jetty cos he wanted to see ppl skimming the waters.

and there he, again, threatened to throw me into the water .

when i said he wouldnt do it, he was prepared to carry me and dump me into the water.

after that we had a lovely moment talking about stuffs, then we headed home, wish could have stayed longer but he has to head back to camp. booohooo

i miss him more and more lately. the bus ride back to bedok wasnt that bad for him lahh cos he irritated me yet again. pfffft!!!

the pic below was taken at starbucks w/o my knowledge. he is a pro at this i think, stealing pics from ppl. i give up when it comes to taking his pics cos they comeout pretty awful and he knows, somehow, that im going to take his pic. how pathetic can i be seyy

hummph!

"eyy, ngade2 nye die"

taggie replies
nana & nadd : nak itot eh, nxt tym korg sembunyi dlm bag aku ke, coli aku ke, amcm? mahu?

ifah : went out today instd of ytd and no sadly no pics. grrr he knows when i secretly want to steal a pic from him. pffft!!

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the four photos above were supposed to be uploaded on the 27th Of January, 2008. but somehow, due to overlaughter thanks to him i forgot to ask him to send it to me and thus after ages i finally got it

i guess i did not get the job at escape theme park, but nevermind that, i have job offers already. and of course they are looking for a babysitter for the weekends. i still am not sure if i want to take up those jobs, sure i need money but who doesnt, right??

my sister has plans to go for job interviews at the end of may. not that she has to go for interviews. she will get the job cos she will be working with my aunt, who has a good track record at her workplace. and my sis will be working as a waitress. i wonder how that will turn out. im sure it will be for the best cos my sis is the understatement of a people-person. if she wanted to run for president she could. unlike me sulking away at home with my depression hanging over my head when i have nothing to do at home. pfffft!!!!

aniwaes later going out with mr moon, to idk where yet.
details will be posted later in the day &&&& hopefully with pics. =)

and having a wardrobe malfunction right now. the top that Nuruz lent me fits alright but it is a little bit short and my tummy can be seen, so i need to find another longer tank top to wear over the top that she lent me. no offence meant aye Nuruz. =)

toodles then, for now =)

Today during BCT prac, we ( Zura, Nana, Zulfah and Me ) made soap. the process of soap making is called Saponification.

its damn cool sia. making our own soap by using veggie oil, ethanol aka alcohol, KOH & NaCl.

it took us like only half an hour to finish the first stage of the process. Sadly, we can only manage to do the first stage since, saponification itself, the actual one that is, requires many different stages ( 20 stages, if i got my facts right. ) and the use of sophisticated machines to make real usable soap. the one we made, im guessing, is not usable.^-^

the first step is mixing the veggie oil, ethanol and KOH or potassium hydroxide, the main ingredient for the making of liquid soap, to get the solution that you see below.
anyhow, we are boiling the mixture using a hotplate, and thats the grey orange thingy that u see under the conical flask.

the next few pictures shown is of the saponification process meaning we were waiting for the solution to precipitate, to become semi solid before we add the NaCl, sodium chloride, which helps to separate the soap from the mixture.

this is where the precipitation is occuring. if you look closely the liquid has changed in state, from liquid to semi-solid

and for this, we have added the NaCl to separate the soap from the liquid. again if you put your face to the screen :),

you can see bits of soap. :)

now back to normal school day.

today's word of the day which was quoted from my dear gf Nana

"KETOT"

dun ask me what it means cos i have no clue but it came from the sentence below so try and figure it out aye ;)

"lau jeans cam myra, cuci nanti ketot"

however if you readers still cant guess it, what nana meant to say was the word " kecut" and not "ketot", this all happened just cos Zura had the idea of hiding her hp and thus she become unhinged and stress, and thus nonsensical words came out of her mouth. since today was her day, i wonder who's day will it be tomorrow. i hope its not me

ehhes.

i sincerely hope that this will be the last time that i absent myself from school, ever.
i feel like a big jerk because my gfs have been giving me lots of advice, especially Nana, i have been doing what she has told me to do but sometimes i forget to do it. i've been trying hard but i guess not hard enough. thinking about it now, i guess this will help me in the lnng run. instead of just helping get through my depression, i feel it can make me a happier person inside if i am persistant enough to make it through till the end. i reali hope this chapter in my life will have a happy ending, for once and not just another cliffhanger.

people may think i take them for granted sometimes but i feel i don't, i know im sounding too overconfident when im saying this but i have never taken anyone for granted on purpose. i always try to cherish the ones that mean something to me.

however, sometimes i feel that when i give people advice, help them through their phases, they never want to listen. well they pretend to but they just shrug it off. if they don't want my help in the first place, then don't come to me whining about this and that. will save me the trouble of thinking of ways to help them and instead help myself. God knows that i need all the help that im willing to take and learn from. when i told Mother about this, she said,

" sayang, u nid to learn how to put yourself before others instead of putting others before yourself. "

i guess this another bad habit of mine, putting others before myself, moreso now that i have this depression hanging over my head like a death sentence waiting to be read out. maybe that i sjust what i need to do, be a little selfish once in awhile. it will be tough since i have never been selfish to anyone in my life before, maybe the only person i have been selfish to is myself. that shouldn't be hard right, being a little bit more selfish towards others since i have been selfish to myself all this while.

"Far Away"

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,you know, you know

[CHORUS]

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go

underneath the stars we sat, cos we missed the sunset
amidst the jokes, the stupid remarks of everything imaginable
songs shared under the starry sky
the stolen peck on the cheek.
i felt the warmth sitting next to you.
i am still feeling the warmness of your touch,
when u hugged me while i lay asleep on your shoulder
the way u gently shook me awake,
to tell me that
we've reached our destination

most of all,
i loved the way u made me smile and laugh,
i loved the way u teased me all through the night
i loved the fact that u enjoyed the moment spent together with me.

im beginning to love everything about you
and i hope u do too
even though i know ive broke ur heart twice
i still do hope that u'll love me for me
and not what i have unintentionally done to you.

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i found someone else who understands me
like my gfs do
i found someone who makes me happy
like my gfs do
and hopefully i have found someone i can love and hope he shares the same feelings.

bonds were created and shared,
everlasting memories were imprinted in my head
and for the first time, in a very long time.
i fell asleep with a smile upon my face


thank you my sweet Mr Moon