Thursday, 14 June 2012

jumbled emotions

i have been sucha wreck since babysis left for Bangkok.

the most epic fail ting i have done thus far is mistaking the CAT shampoo for the usual one i use. i kid you not people. i almost massaged it on my head, thank god i noticed the smell was different. i think i am suffering from withdrawal symptoms. tsk.

anywho, i put a stop to the affair i had going on. it was a mutual thing 'cos things were starting to get dangerous and i figured i had enough excitement for the past few weeks. though it left me wanting more cos he left such an impression on me but i have already started to dis-associate all sexual feelings i have of him. its important that i do this as quickly as possible cos i wouldn't want to ruin the friendship that we always had.

after, everything that has happened between me and him, i realised that i had no right to compete for his sexual attention with his girlfriend. true that it was a convenient affair but still, i shouldn't have let my craving for physical affection get to me. i know it is wrong but truthfully, i do not feel any guilt whatsoever. no regrets either. i think being a Sagittarius is why i am the way i am.

however, i don't go searching for lovers. if its convenient and if we're mutual about it then yes. i guess i am to much of a free spirit nowadays, especially after leaving a bad relationship. i have no intention to commit just yet.

i need to compartmentalize my thoughts and emotions again. only Allah(swt) knows how messed up it is.

Good Day World!

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