a slight dent in my plans. i really have to scrimp and save up for the next two months. 'cos of cpf deductions, it feels like i didn't do any ot for the past 2 months. pft!

why do they have to deduct soo much for the cpf contributions when i don't even earn that much in the first place. Work's pay sucks. Mother says it will help me in the long run. Whatever, that doesn't mean i have to like it.

I think it 's time that i started investing my money, earn while i save that kinda thing. I checked out a couple of insurance websites and decided upon Great Eastern. Father has been dealing with that insurance company since i could remember, so it seems fitting to continue doing business with them. Father did say i will get my payout from that insurance company when i turn 21. But i want to decide where my money will go before that, so i don't run the risk of mishandling it. truth be told, i've not yet gotten used to managing my own finances and i still end up with less money in my bank than originally planned. so it would be nice if there was someone to financially advice me on how to handle money matters.

Investing does seem like the best solution to me now, 'cos saving money doesn't reap quite as much rewards as investing will.

KOREA!

My July leave is approved when i went to check my team's notice board yesterday afternoon after work. I was so damn excited and happy that i almost danced a jig right there in front of the notice board.

I've just made my tour booking. Father said the earlier the better since i can really plan it out and ask them the important questions that needed to be asked.

I have to ensure that i don't spend on anything at all, except for the paying of bills and the stuff that i need to buy, like a luggage bag for instance. other than that i have to hide my card from my prying eyes. i hope i can survive not spending my salary for the next two months.

i really, really hope that this trip will come to fruition. i've been waiting forever to go on a holiday by myself. and i got my wish. well at least half of it since i got my leave approved and all. did i already tell you my leave was approved? hehes.

the other half is currently in its mid stages. just emailed my booking information and enquiry to the travel agency and all that's left for now is to wait for the reply.

i have to go buy my luggage bag sometime this month.

i wonder how the weather will be like in Korea in July, and if i can make friends during my trip since i am really going on my own following a tour, a Muslim tour since Father emphasized his concern on that matter, i wouldn't have cared less actually since i'm not a fussy eater. but, that's the least i can do for him since he let me go on this trip.

I'M SO EXCITED!

Stitch!

I have been watching Lilo and Stitch, the movies as well as the series, which i just started watching today. I really miss watching that little blue dude.

if only they sold all 628 experiment plush toys here, i would make it my goal to own all. start my first ever hobby. i sound deprived aye, not having a real hobby ever. i guess as a kid i grew up fast and grew out of things pretty fast too.

anyways, today has been rather boring 'cos i was stuck. i am still stuck doing chores. my laundry is done left and i'm left with cleaning of my room before i go to bed. though i'll do that after i watch The Last Air bender. i still love watching cartoons. next to books they are the best source to kick start my imagination. animation is a better word to use instead of cartoon at my age, sounds more fitting don't you think?

that's all.

Random Updates

my girls are going to KL in a weeks' time. I'm so gonna miss them. but at least i get to see them off for their trip.

work wise, nothing much has changed. i still dread going to work and all the crap that comes with it.

i've made up with boyfriend. it's really my fault, i guess, 'cos i kinda got jealous cos' other couples get to celebrate their anniversaries but i don't. it's really petty of me. i should learn to cherish what i got before i lose it or them.

today is my night shift, again i'm not looking forward to it.

my leave is on the 11th of june, besides sending my girls off for their trip in the morning, i have no other plans besides that. prolly stay at home. or something. visit my grandmums?

well it sure is going to be a boring day, but at least i get to escape from the holiday crowd, even if for one day.

okay, just about the randomest updates ever.

it's been 2 years. i can't believe it's been 2 years.

well, the two years means nothing since i can't celebrate it.

i don't even know why i'm here blogging when it's pretty clear i have no idea what to say.

it should be one of the days to remember but i have nothing that's worth remembering today. unless of course i want to remember that i'm having one of those i'mnottalkingtoyou fights with him.

as if it's too much too ask for him to remember a date. fuck, it's an easy enough combination to remember. 0106, the 1st of june.

maybe i should start doing things my way, instead of trying to find a compromise that always falls in his favour. knowing me, i'll prolly still behave the same way since i don't have a heart to be mean to him on purpose. yes, i don't have a heart right now 'cos it's with him and he's hurting it yet again without him realising.

enough with all the metaphors since they mean nothing to anyone except for me.

i'll be waiting for him to call me 'cos that's how it works. i don't have the energy to try and work things out. i'll just let him cool down enough so we can have a civilised conversation w/o the silence or the shouting.

i feel so misinformed about life.