wish i could meet Love today but he's working and i'm too tired to go out. nothing else to do at home, correction, nothing much to do at home. besides spending time with the kitties and watching videos on youtube i'll prolly end up sleeping until nightfall.

Love says, "perangai macam oink-oink gitu."

p/s: is it a good sign if he suddenly starts getting jealous? i don't understand jealousy 'cos it's a foreign emotion to me.

No day off feel today.

thanks to a classification shoot i have to attend today, my shopping plans with boyfriend got burned. i should get over it but i'm not.

if i don't attend i have to produce an mc. which sucks. so i'm forcing myself to go for it 'cos firstly boyfriend told me just get it over and done with and second, i'm going because there are only 2 girls from alpha. so if i don't go my colleague will be all alone dealing with the guys.

frankly speaking, i'd rather not go at all. but what to do, they've got me on a leash and i have to come to heel.

sucks to be me. i wonder how my other colleagues are spending their day off?

three cheers for me!

My Korea trip is a success!

I'm not going alone 'cos Khai got her mom to agree to the trip and i don't have to spend much on the package 'cos I'm liaising with another travel agency.

Gosh! I'm so excited! i will be meeting Khai at Bugis, where else do we meet besides that place, to book our tickets and everything else. I think i'm going to spazz about our upcoming trip. Father seems pleased enough that I'm not going alone. he's excuse is that he doesn't want me to get bored if i were to go alone but i think there's another reason behind it.

anyways.

I failed my btt the 2nd time 'cos i failed to turn up on time. i blame the shuttle bus for being late. by the time i reached ssdc i only had the option to book another btt and the earliest possible date is on the 30th of July at 2pm. well at least i have another month or so to revise.

now am off to get ready for lunch date with sister.

travel agency hopping.

I've been searching for cheaper packages for Korea, just so i can bring a friend and not get bored. I'm also comparing travel packages to Malaysia's east coast. All those islands like Langkawi, Redang and Tioman.

Holidaying in Malaysia's east coast is boyfriend's idea and he still wants to go to Malacca with me. however, there are no tour packages to Malacca just free and easy ones, so far. he prefers going on tour 'cos even though he's used to going to Malacca with his family, he doesn't know much about the place except for the shopping spots and maybe a few other places.

I'm doing everything cos he doesn't have a working computer at home. comparing prices and packages is taxing on the brain. not to mention that it's confusing.

Boyfriend said that if i can find a cheaper package to Korea then we'll postpone our holiday to some other date since he says that I've been wanting to go to Korea like forever on the account that he's been listening to my holiday plans to Korea since last year. He's unexpectedly sweet like that sometimes, that's why I Love Him. :)

however, if i can't then we'll go on holiday together once we've decided on a package and cost of travel.

whatever the situation it may conclude to, it's still a win-win sitch for me. :)

when plans go haywire.

"Planning something is never a piece of cake, if it was then it wouldn't be life 'cos life is never easy."

I may or may not end up going to Korea for my holiday. I might be heading somewhere else in Asia. Bali, Bangkok, China, who knows but i still really want to go to Korea. The travel agency has not called me up yet regarding my request.

Well here's to hoping for the best. :)

a slight dent in my plans. i really have to scrimp and save up for the next two months. 'cos of cpf deductions, it feels like i didn't do any ot for the past 2 months. pft!

why do they have to deduct soo much for the cpf contributions when i don't even earn that much in the first place. Work's pay sucks. Mother says it will help me in the long run. Whatever, that doesn't mean i have to like it.

I think it 's time that i started investing my money, earn while i save that kinda thing. I checked out a couple of insurance websites and decided upon Great Eastern. Father has been dealing with that insurance company since i could remember, so it seems fitting to continue doing business with them. Father did say i will get my payout from that insurance company when i turn 21. But i want to decide where my money will go before that, so i don't run the risk of mishandling it. truth be told, i've not yet gotten used to managing my own finances and i still end up with less money in my bank than originally planned. so it would be nice if there was someone to financially advice me on how to handle money matters.

Investing does seem like the best solution to me now, 'cos saving money doesn't reap quite as much rewards as investing will.

KOREA!

My July leave is approved when i went to check my team's notice board yesterday afternoon after work. I was so damn excited and happy that i almost danced a jig right there in front of the notice board.

I've just made my tour booking. Father said the earlier the better since i can really plan it out and ask them the important questions that needed to be asked.

I have to ensure that i don't spend on anything at all, except for the paying of bills and the stuff that i need to buy, like a luggage bag for instance. other than that i have to hide my card from my prying eyes. i hope i can survive not spending my salary for the next two months.

i really, really hope that this trip will come to fruition. i've been waiting forever to go on a holiday by myself. and i got my wish. well at least half of it since i got my leave approved and all. did i already tell you my leave was approved? hehes.

the other half is currently in its mid stages. just emailed my booking information and enquiry to the travel agency and all that's left for now is to wait for the reply.

i have to go buy my luggage bag sometime this month.

i wonder how the weather will be like in Korea in July, and if i can make friends during my trip since i am really going on my own following a tour, a Muslim tour since Father emphasized his concern on that matter, i wouldn't have cared less actually since i'm not a fussy eater. but, that's the least i can do for him since he let me go on this trip.

I'M SO EXCITED!

Stitch!

I have been watching Lilo and Stitch, the movies as well as the series, which i just started watching today. I really miss watching that little blue dude.

if only they sold all 628 experiment plush toys here, i would make it my goal to own all. start my first ever hobby. i sound deprived aye, not having a real hobby ever. i guess as a kid i grew up fast and grew out of things pretty fast too.

anyways, today has been rather boring 'cos i was stuck. i am still stuck doing chores. my laundry is done left and i'm left with cleaning of my room before i go to bed. though i'll do that after i watch The Last Air bender. i still love watching cartoons. next to books they are the best source to kick start my imagination. animation is a better word to use instead of cartoon at my age, sounds more fitting don't you think?

that's all.

Random Updates

my girls are going to KL in a weeks' time. I'm so gonna miss them. but at least i get to see them off for their trip.

work wise, nothing much has changed. i still dread going to work and all the crap that comes with it.

i've made up with boyfriend. it's really my fault, i guess, 'cos i kinda got jealous cos' other couples get to celebrate their anniversaries but i don't. it's really petty of me. i should learn to cherish what i got before i lose it or them.

today is my night shift, again i'm not looking forward to it.

my leave is on the 11th of june, besides sending my girls off for their trip in the morning, i have no other plans besides that. prolly stay at home. or something. visit my grandmums?

well it sure is going to be a boring day, but at least i get to escape from the holiday crowd, even if for one day.

okay, just about the randomest updates ever.

it's been 2 years. i can't believe it's been 2 years.

well, the two years means nothing since i can't celebrate it.

i don't even know why i'm here blogging when it's pretty clear i have no idea what to say.

it should be one of the days to remember but i have nothing that's worth remembering today. unless of course i want to remember that i'm having one of those i'mnottalkingtoyou fights with him.

as if it's too much too ask for him to remember a date. fuck, it's an easy enough combination to remember. 0106, the 1st of june.

maybe i should start doing things my way, instead of trying to find a compromise that always falls in his favour. knowing me, i'll prolly still behave the same way since i don't have a heart to be mean to him on purpose. yes, i don't have a heart right now 'cos it's with him and he's hurting it yet again without him realising.

enough with all the metaphors since they mean nothing to anyone except for me.

i'll be waiting for him to call me 'cos that's how it works. i don't have the energy to try and work things out. i'll just let him cool down enough so we can have a civilised conversation w/o the silence or the shouting.

i feel so misinformed about life.